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10. Grumpy

     

       I AM HABITUAL OF WALKING on eggshells now, my life is same but without ink. I don't have any colours in my life it's just so pitch black and white, and i don't even care less about it.

He's dead was all to give my life a pause, i am still a 17 years old boy who hope that he gets up , but he was cold, blue, with his eyes open looking at the world not with the lively eyes but with the dead eyes.

I shook my thoughts off not trying to think of him, but i can't bring myself from not thinking about him.

I was walking back towards appi when i saw anam walking on the road and behind her a old drunk man is following, by seeing this my blood boil, she doesn't even have any idea.

I first glare at the old man, and somehow that sacred him the shit of him. And he walked away.

I ask anam to sit with me but she and her tramas.

I like the way like cheeks adore with the blush when I called her 'sweety'. She was constantly saying me not to call that but i can see she was liking it.

I don't know why but whenever I talk to her or tease her i forget everything, i forget my darkness.

I don't know but i am sound so stupid to myself when i argue with her on small small things.

God, she even call me kutta. I was so amused by that fact if my haters got to know this they will be laughing at me, that a mere girl is giving name's to me, that to on my face.

But she is different first i thought that she was also a attention seeker or a over dumb girl.
But she is not.

She acts like she doesn't feel anything whenever i came close to her but i always saw her face red.

The most biggest surprise was that she being my new neighbour, i don't know now how much i have to bear her.

When she touch my arms telling me to go inside to fresh, i felt a electric wave in her touch.

She do things that she also don't know.

But i think, i need to keep distance from her, she is getting so attached to me. I can't do this anymore.

It's better that i should keep her away from me than the reality keeping her away from me. Or the people keeping her away from me.

After our truce of not seeing or contacting each other at college, i visited appi. She give me a box of chicken curry and said to give it to anam.
And some how i ended up saying her that she is my neighbour, she was so....... shocked? No no no, she was so happy that she can't tell, nor me idk why she like her so much.

Because anam is sweet

She is cute.

She is blunt and talkative.

She is beautiful.

She has brown ey-

Wait! Where am i going?

I think I am going crazy. And why the hell i am talking about her eye colour?

Soon I left the appi house and go to my flat.

I walked towards anam door, and i can hear music sound.

I ring the bell, and after some moments she open the door.

She changed her clothes to normal causal clothes, she was wearing a grey hoodies and black pyjamas and a black t-shirt underneath which was showing from her half done grey hoodies zip, her hair were done in a messy bun, her baby hairs dancing on her cheeks making her look beautiful.