Summer Lovin'

13-The Fact That it Wasn't Bad

I was getting ready for work. It has been two days since me and Jeremiah have kissed. If I'm being honest that's all I could think about. I've been smiling about it but, also freaking out. I didn't really want to talk to him because then we'd have to discuss our kiss and our friendship would be thrown in the trash.

So, I'm avoiding him, because then it's not real, right?

I walk downstairs to fill up my water bottle before work. My mom was on the couch reading a book. We didn't say anything to each other, which was normal sadly.

"Where are you going?" My mother asked. "Work." I said grabbing the keys from the key holder. "What are you doing?" "What?" "With the keys?" "Going to work." I said as if she was dumb. "Kamden is using the car today." She said flatly. "Okay...I need to go to work, I need the car." "Well he asked this morning so he gets it."

I'm gonna freak out. "How am I supposed to get to work than mom?" "I don't know maybe you should have arranged that earlier." "I didn't know earlier!" I was becoming frustrated. "Don't raise your voice at me" She snapped, "I'm just confused as to how you think I'm going to get to work?" "Walk."

I stared at her dumbfounded. "Mom, it's like 10 miles away!" "You better get walking then." "I'm not walking, I'm using the car" I said walking away, "Kirsten Stark! Get back here right now!" I stomped back. "You always let Kamden do whatever he wants! I'm trying to be a responsible adult and go to my job, but you aren't letting me!"

Now me and my mom were fighting back and fourth. Which was just what I needed today. After all of the yelling we compromised that Kamden will drive me to and from work today. Awesome.

When we got to the clubhouse I was not in the mood to see or talk to anyone, let alone Jeremiah. I walked in, put my stuff in my locker and went straight to my lifeguard stand. Today is going to be a long day because some family rented out the pool for a party so all the employees have to stay after and work the party.

A couple hours went by and I haven't seen Jeremiah, maybe he's not at work today. I walk into the break room and realized I spoke to soon. He was sitting on a chair in there. We made eye contact and all of my feelings for him came to surface again. "Hi," I said, "Hey," he said. He got up and walked out. This is what I was afraid of.

The rest of work was miserable, from annoying kids, ridiculously hot temperatures and a weird tension between me and Jeremiah. I was ready for this day to be over. I texted Kamden to come and pick me up 15 minutes before work ended so he would be here when I got off.

The sun had set and we were doing our closing routine. I picked up some lifeguard rings and were carrying them to the shed as Jeremiah was coming out of the shed.

"I got these," He said taking them from me. "Thanks." I watched him put them on the shelf, he turned around to walk out of the shed but instead he just stared at me. If I was being honest I had no idea what to say to him.

"Um...I'm gonna go. It's been a long day." He said walking past me. I felt sick to my stomach that this is how our relationship is going to be from now on. Maybe it was my fault. I should have never caught feelings for him.

I grabbed my things out of my locker and headed out the doors of the clubhouse. I scanned the parking lot for our car, but I couldn't see it anywhere. I waited about 5 minutes and then decided to call Kamden. No answer. I called him again and no answer. I was about to lose my mind. I called him again and he finally picked up.

"Yo." "Where the hell are you?" "I'm with Brody." "Can you come pick me up?" "I'm not gonna lie...I'm high as hell right now." I released a sigh, "Kamden! You need to come pick me up!" "Nah you're gonna have to find a ride." He hung up.

From the big fight with my mom earlier, to Jeremiah being weird and now this? I need to be sedated.

After trying to decide what to do, I have been sitting on the curb for 20 minutes and it was getting very late. "You've got to be shitting me." I said aloud and began to walk home. Yep. I was going to walk home at night. What else am I to do?

I walked about two blocks when a car pulled up beside me. I became scared and wish I had pepper spray. "Kirsten?" Great. It's Jeremiah to the rescue. "Hi," I said turning to face him in his red jeep.

"What are you doing?" "Walking home." "In the dark?" "Yeah," "Do you want a ride?" "No, I'm good." I stated, "Are you sure? It's a far walk." "I'm sure." "Kirsten get in the car."

I did.

The vibes were incredibly weird. It was silent, painfully silent. I wanted to jump out. He finally broke the silence by saying, "So, why were you walking home?" "Kamden has the car." It was quiet for a moment, "Are you okay?" He asks. "Yeah."

We were a couple minutes from my house when all of a sudden flashing lights appeared behind us accompanied by sirens. "Shit," Jeremiah said, he pulled over.

This is perfect, I really wanted to spend more time with him. He talked to the officer gave him his papers and such. "Alright I'll be right back" The officer said walking off.

"Fuck!" Jeremiah yelled hitting his steering wheel. "Maybe if you weren't speeding we wouldn't be in this situation right now." I said. "Oh now you want to talk to me?" "Don't do that." I rolled my eyes. "Why are you acting like this?" He raised his voice. "Like what?" "Like you're mad!" "I'm not the one who's mad, you're the one who's yelling!" I yelled back. "Yeah cause I just got pulled over!" "That's not my problem!"

He unbuckled his seatbelt and released a laugh, which almost made me a little scared. "What?" I asked. "Nothing, this is great, this is exactly how I wanted to end my day." "Do you think this is how I wanted my day to turn out?" I said unbuckling my seatbelt.

"Can we just talk about it?" He said lowering his voice and turning to face me. Which is the first time he's looked at me this whole car ride. "Talk about what?" "You know what." I stared at him, I did know what. And I didn't want to talk about that, not right now. "Why?" "Why don't you want to talk about it?" Then I forced a smile on my face, "Okay! I would love to talk about it! Lets!" I sarcastically said.

"What is your problem? Why do you have such a bad attitude?" He sassily said. "I have a bad attitude?" "Yeah!" "I have had a terrible day and you're pissing me off right now!" "Sorry! I guess I was trying to have a conversation with you!" He yelled.

Then me and Jere began fighting, yelling back and fourth. Just like me and my mom earlier. I have never fought with Jere like this before. This was insane for us.

"What are we even fighting about!? This is so stupid!" I yelled. "Is that what you think of our kiss? Stupid?!" "Jeremiah!" I wanted him to stop yelling, I was so frustrated and emotional. I either wanted to cry my eyes out or hit him. "Was our kiss really that bad?" "Shut up!" I said.

We were facing each other and I couldn't handle this anymore, I had to do something. "I can't bel-" He started but I interrupted him but grabbing his face and smashing my lips onto his.

I took him by surprise but he was kissing me back. Our lips moved in sync, it was years of bottled up feelings bursting out into the air. It was like a fire ignited between us and there was no way of putting it out. His hand moved up to my neck grabbing it gently. We continued to make out and it was hot.

I was the one to pull away, both of us were out of breath. We stared at each other. "It was the fact that it wasn't bad." I said in almost a whisper, referring to our first kiss. He stayed silent just looking at me, he was still frazzled from what just happened.

"Please say something." I begged hoping I didn't just ruin our relationship more. "You have no idea how long I've been wanting to do that." He said grabbing the back of my head and pulling me in for another kiss.