Summer Lovin'

15-Do You Have a Boyfriend?

TW: Eating disorder related content.

Kathrine came today and like last time my mom has been insane. She made me and Kamden clean the whole house again.

Right now we are sat at dinner table while Kathrine tells us about her job. I'm incredibly bored because I simply do not care. This dinner would have been better if Jeremiah came. I know we aren't dating but I invited him. He unfortunately had to work. So, here I am alone listening to my sister and mother yap.

"I also got into a relationship!" Kathrine beamed. "With a boy?" Kamden asked, my mom snapped at him. "Yeah, his name is Dylan." "Well tell us about him!" My mom asked in the fakest voice I have ever heard. Kathrine went on and on and on, me and Kamden kept making glances at each other. When is this gonna end?

"Kirst do you have a boyfriend?" Kathrine asked looking at me. I knew she was implying Jeremiah because of when she was here last. It made me smile knowing that she remembered our conversation. I didn't know how to answer, I mean me and Jeremiah act like we are dating, but it's not official. I want it to be. So. Bad.

Before I could even open my mouth to respond my mom said, "No, she doesn't." Kamden released a small laugh. I stared at my mom feeling anger rise within me. I took a deep breath, "Um, no I don't." I was a little taken aback by how fast my mom answered that question. How does she even know?

My dad would have never acted like this. I guess that's where they are different.

Kamden got up and got seconds, he sat back down and I decided I wanted seconds too. I walked over and was scooping some food onto my plate when my mom stepped beside me. "What are you doing?" "Getting seconds." I said annoyed by how she was acting tonight.

"I don't know if I would." "Why? Kamden just got some." "Yeah but he's a boy." I am dumbfounded, "So?" "He needs to gain weight...you do not." I stared down at my plate thinking that she is talking crazy right now. "I just think you've put on a few pounds this summer...I would skip getting seconds." She said patting me on the shoulder like she really did something and walked back to the table.

I stood there like I had just been slapped in the face. My mom says some nasty comments to me but nothing ever regarding my weight. She started chatting with Kathrine again. I all of a sudden became very self conscious. Have I really put on weight? I set my plate down and went upstairs.

When I got to my room I closed the door and locked it. I began to have a mini freak out. Was my mom being serious? I mean I didn't think I ate a lot but I also haven't been working out. I say that like I have ever worked out before.

I felt tears well up in my eyes. I was very overwhelmed with this news about me. I grabbed my phone to call Jeremiah and talk to him. I was about to press "Call" when two thoughts entered my mind. One, he's at work he most likely won't answer. Two, would me telling him this bug him? I don't want to seem like I'm complaining and besides if I tell him he might agree that I have gained weight too.

I began to cry. I walked over to my mirror and took my shirt and shorts off so I was left standing in my bra and underwear. I pinched my skin in between my fingers and broke down.

*****

After I finally got done crying and moping around in my room I wanted to go to the dock. I walked there feeling a little bit better now that I was breathing in the cool summer air. The sun had just set so the light was fading fast.

I took a seat on the bench at the dock and tried to distract myself from my life at the moment.

"Seems like I always find you here." It was Conrad. "Seems like it." He took a seat across from me just like last time. "What brings you here this time?" "My mom is the worst." "Damn, everything okay?" "Yeah I'll be fine." I said not really wanting to tell Conrad my problems. "What about you?" "Just need a break." "Gotcha." That's when I remembered his mom and the information he had told me last time we were in these seats.

"How is your mom doing?" He stayed quiet for a moment, "Honestly, I think she is getting worse." My heart started pounding in my chest waiting for what he was going to say next. "Her and Laurel say they're going shopping but I know they're at doctor appointments." That part stung, it was as if it got stuck in the air between us.

I didn't quite know how to respond. After what felt like minutes of silence I said, "I bet she will be okay Con," "Hopefully." We left our conversation at that.

A/N: Another short, filler chapter. I am going to be publishing the next one very soon!

Also I changed the cover! I like this one better than the last one.