Love and Fury

Chapter 5

     My relationship with Braxton wasn't all bad. He was sweet at times when he wanted to be, and we only argued occasionally. I feel like that's normal though. I feel like everyone fights in their relationship at some point. Whether it's over something important or completely stupid, I feel like that is just normal in a relationship. Especially your first ever relationship.

     I know I said I was in a long distance relationship. I don't count that as a real relationship, though. I was 13 and stupid. 13 and I just wanted love. I wanted someone to pay attention to me. Someone to just be there for me. This relationship was real to me. We go on dates, go on vacations, make plans for the future, ect. His mom has taken me with them to almost every cool thing they go to because she knows my parents just aren't capable.

     There was one thing that got in the way of our relationship, but I think we squashed that. Braxton was letting the other girls he had as friends before come between us, especially this one girl for sure. I needed him to realize that it wasn't okay to just ditch his girlfriend and go rescue other damsels in distress.

     Don't get me wrong, I didn't tell him to go and be an asshole to every girl and never be nice. Yet, when one girl is calling your man for every little thing and tells him not to bring you; you can't help but feel some type of way. Am I stupid for going back after he allowed that to happen? Probably, but I love him. I think I do anyway.

     Besides, we're both young and learning how to love. Maybe he just thought he was being nice. He apologized and we have been fine ever since. She hasn't called him, and we have just been doing our own thing.

     It was great. Everything was okay. I'm in love, the girls at school aren't really bothering us that much anymore, home life has been okay. It's actually scary. I'm waiting for something to go wrong. Aside from my parents still being on drugs, my life has never gone this well before. There is usually something dramatic happening all the time.

     Right now I'm just sitting in study hall and reflecting on my life. I've been here almost a year now and I think I'm getting the hang of things. This town is bigger than my last one, but not by much. I now know where everything is without having to ask people for directions. I have a group of friends. Granted, they're all my friends only because of Sky but it works. They're the type of people I would love to hang out with.

     I have places to escape too if my home life is too much. I have people I can call for help if I need too. Braxton bought me an actual cell phone. He said he feels safer being able to text or call me at any point, not just whenever I have wifi. Taking in a deep breath, Just go with the flow, and stop worrying. That's what I keep repeating in my head over and over again. I don't wanna have to worry. Maybe at this point in life, it is time for me to have a break.

     DING, DING, DING. The bell dismissing the last period for the day snaps me right out of my thoughts. Time for me to find Braxton and get home. It's the weekend and I actually don't mind for once. I won't be trapped in the house wishing I was at school. I'll be with Braxton and hanging out with friends. I'm so ready.

     Heading out of the class, I start heading for the back doors where everyone exits to get to the student parking. On my way out, Sky comes up beside me and starts walking. "So, are you ready for this weekend?"

     "Heck yeah, we're gonna get so drunk. It'll be great."

     Sky stops me as we get out the back doors, "I just know why you haven't been drinking so please take it easy. I don't wanna have to worry about you."

     "Sky," I place my hand on her shoulder, "I am going to be okay. Life is going good. I won't have another one of those accidents."

     "Okay, if you say so," she sighs.