My brothers best friend (luke hemmings)

I'm sorry guys

Si I know you're expecting an update and shit, and you're probably wondering "siobhan where the hell have you been and why the fuck haven't you updated" so basically here it is.

So, there'd this guy who I absolutely adore and he likes me back, so he invited me to go to a dance as his date.i had so much fun there, we got pictures, and all that fun shit. Now my best friends knew about this, and yesterday the last day of school, we had as dance so my friends decided, "let's push siobhan into dancing wi th him in front of the whole school, it won't make her anxious or nervous" now mow in theheur defence th ey know he likes me and I lime him say t he y wanted shut to happen like me. Now I ended up sompleteky avoiding it and starti ng to cry a bit so I went to get ny phone. When I got back, I went and say at a table in the far back. Of course some ass hole decides "let's make the dsnce anyways even tho siobhan abut to have a panic attack" so th ey tried to request along with a bunch of other couple but b4 they could request he was like "oh th at d enough " and that's when, I st add Ted to cry, shake,.hyperventilate, u lost feeling un ny hands and feet and almost blacked out. I couldn't breath no matter how much I tried and it felt like there was no air when in fact I was hyperventilating. So children for a period of time before that is if was really really sad, and when I hung out ei th him I was happy. Now it'd summer, he is in a different oft the school next year, and I made him cry because he cares that much about me and my well being. So, If you haven't noticed I have had a really super shitty past few weeks and I couldn't write. And right now I'm having slit of trouble andnd in just cznt do it. I'll be back inn andnd few days. Please don't hate me. I can't help feel anxious and sad. I love you guys.