everything all the time

lyric pt 1

(tw) wsp bruh just like btw this one is not about kenny(ish) more of a vent so yeah !!

I sit in my head and my thoughts

a song lyric keeps playing

again

and again

and again

and again

I can't get this shit out of my head

I keep singing it to myself

"and i've never felt more alone"

I sit and wonder why it's going through my head so much

my thoughts slow down

and it clicks

it's because it's real

the lyric is

real

i've genuinely never felt more fucking alone in my life

 I mean sure I have all my new good friends right?

I have kenny, enzo, scarlet, sawyer, siena, rory, syd, madison, mal

but whenever im around them

the feeling doesn't leave

I can't escape the loneliness

it sticks and says with me

whenever i'm alone

the lyric will play

i'll start fake screaming it

or zoning out to it

or singing it playfully

or writing it down

or thinking about it

it's stuck in my head

and it's a reminder

i'm alone

im alone all by myself

what the fuck

why.

you were just telling mia that your happy

that you are genuinely happy

ever since you left suzy and left jolie and left everyone

you were supposed to be happy

why can't you fucking be happy for once

you don't have leila on your back anymore

you don't have to deal with tatianna

you don't have to have your heart shatter when you see suzy

you don't have to sit silently alone and waiting for someone to talk you anymore

you have a best friend in this school that you haven't dated

you don't have to have a messy relationship with sana anymore

everything was fixed by moving

for fucks sake, angel (cant say my real name ofc !!)

you are fucking moving out of your house

you are taking your medication now

you actually talk to your friends about your mh

you can call your friends 'friends' and fucking mean it what the fuck else do you need?

why are you so needy.

why are you still attached to the fucking school

*** fucked you up

why do you miss it?

why do you love it.

it's just like you missing and loving the system.

you hated going from house to house

but you always got attached.

because of her.

because of your sister.

but she is gone.

they are all gone.

they never wanted to keep you

just like every relationship

they don't want to keep you.

because you freak them the fuck out

cause you talk

and talk

and talk

you never stop fucking talking

you get so annoying that boys don't even want to hear what you have to say anymore

(TW:BODY)

they just want to see what's under your shirt

or whats in your pants

they don't want to get to know you

so why?

why do you have crushes on them

why do you try to actually talk to them

why do you sit and wait around for their text

like they aren't going to ask if you want to send

you get so attached

oh my god stop.

o my god stop.

my god stop.

y god stop.

god stop.

od stop.

d stop.

stop.