Redemancy

52.

Amara

I've been laying awake all night, my head on Valerius' stomach. His arm wrapped around my shoulder as Aeron lays on the other side of me, holding me from behind.

It's like my head keeps spinning, like I'm stressing so much. Although I have no clue what about.

I look on the alarm clock, only to see it's 3:47 am. Time is going so slow, and I'm not falling asleep.

I haven't lied a night awake like this in a year, not since I lived with Patrick.

I slept horribly there because of how scared I was, stressed about what might happen to me the next day if Patrick wasn't happy.

Part of me feels very stressed out, although I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be stressed about. I'm meeting Aeron's sister in two days.

I'm more excited for it than I am nervous.

I just have a bad feeling.

I slip away from beneath my men and walk out of Aeron's bedroom. I find myself making way to the kitchen to grab a glass of milk.

To be honest, I only like milk when it's heated, but I can't be bothered to heat it up in a pan right now.

I take slow sips out of the glass as I walk into the living room, seeing blue laying on the couch. She has grown so much since she's gotten here, it's crazy.

I sit next to her on the couch slowly, not wanting to scare her. She slowly awakens, seeing me before crawling onto my lap, purring as she wants me to rub her belly.

Putting the glass on the coffee table, I scratch her belly as her head nuzzles in my lap, seeking comfort.

"What are you doing up, baby?" I hear a voice say, half-yawning. I turn around to see Lucifer coming from the kitchen. The kitchen leads to the basement, which I guess is where he's been.

"Can't sleep. Why aren't you sleeping?" I ask him as he comes to sit on the couch with me, turning his body towards mine.

He looks exhausted.

"Had some work to do." He says, looking stressed as he rubs his face with his hands before looking up at me again.

"What's going on?" I ask him curiously, putting blue back on the couch next to me as I turn towards Lucifer, scooting closer to him.

"It's nothing you have to worry about, sweetheart." He says as I feel annoyance building up inside of me.

They never let me in on these kinds of things. I get it, 'cause of what happend almost two months ago. But I'm as much involved with it as them, or atleast I'd like to be.

We're together, so we're a team. Which means they shouldn't keep secrets from me again, just because that's not how this is supposed to work.

"You have to tell me, Luce, you guys can't go on keeping secrets from me. It's unfair to me to see you guys stressing so much without having any clue what's going on whatsoever." I say, raising my voice a bit out of anger, but regretting it immediately. "Sorry." I mutter out.

"I know, baby. You're right. We shouldn't be keeping secrets from you. Why don't you go wake the guys, I'm sure they'll kill me if I tell you without them knowing." Lucifer jokes, causing me to giggle.