You Smell Like Hope

18. Atlas: Heart

Like the world makes sense
From your window seat
You are beautiful
Like I've never seen
Go ahead and laugh
Even if it hurts

Flowering flower.
Coming alive when you let it.

Jisung's pov.

Waking up the first morning in the apartment felt strange, but for once this strange feeling did not send me panicking on the floor. this strange feeling of the unknown, but one you know is better than what you have known your whole life.

It's 2pm right now, I have been staring at the wall since I woke up, which I am not sure when exactly, but I have to get up now and get ready. Today is day two of the children event and today is even more important since real orphans would be attending the event. It was an idea I proposed to Minho when he first told me about the purpose of the event, to my surprise he agreed and made a call with one of the nearest orphanages in the city and asked them if it was possible for some children to attend. of course, they agreed. Five boys and Five girls all teenagers will be there tonight, and I want to make it perfect for them even more than the businessmen there. I know this will be their only chance outside for a while especially that it's harder for teenagers to be adopted.

With that thought in my head, I got up and took a quick shower in the big bathroom with warm water, a soft smile present on my lips as I did so. I used all the products Felix had sent me for my hair first, then body before I left the shower and stood in front of the mirror. I started to recall what Felix told me about face cleanser as I washed my teeth. when I was finally done, hopefully doing everything correctly. I walked back to my room with a soft towel around me to prevent the cold shivers from traveling down my body. I picked up the outfit that was delivered to me last night. I was informed that Hyunjin was the one who picked it for me. this fact alone scared me, but I calmed myself and slowly opened the bag that kept the outfit safe.

Isn't it funny how the piece clothes got more coverage and protection than me?

I don't even know I was disappointed to see the revealing outfit, it's way more covering than many I have had before. I was getting taken care off, I have a job I love now, a whole warm apartment with a warm bed and water, food available for all three meals even though I could only eat one. I have so much already I don't get to complain about clothes, about anything actually.

I quickly put it on and fixed up my face with the makeup Hemy and Nino gave me when I showed them my old makeup bag, they said that my foundation wouldn't do the work I wanted it to under the stage lightening instead it would look 'cakey' because it's definitely expired, and that this brand stopped this line more than six years ago, did I know that? not exactly but I was not surprised since it was giving to me by the base so I can hide anything that isn't flawless in my skin, however, after fifteen minutes of Hemy rambling about how bad it is I figured that it was doing more harm than good. I quickly applied everything the way the girls taught me to make it look natural under the heavy lightening on the stage.

When I finally succeeded in blending it smoothly, I went to check the clock on my phone. It was already 4.30pm and Jeongin had texted me that he will be here at five, which gives me thirty minutes to have a meal and revise my speech as well as the lyrics.

I went grocery shopping for the first-time last night, I got random stuff, some of the stuff I got I had no idea how to cook them or if they are even good, but I was happy I can go to the store and buy things instead of just walking around for the cold AC like I used to on hot days. I got few weird looks from people in the store as I wondered around, I am not sure why and it did make me uncomfortable, but the colorful food packages were a good enough distraction. and sitting now on the comfortable chair in the kitchen eating fruit cereal, it was definitely worth it.