Pleasing Silas

24

-Sophia Russo-

My alarm goes off and I groan, even though I broke it off I feel like absolute shit, I didn't go to class the past two days.

I force myself up and rub my eyes, my dorm isn't such a mess but it's messy still, I need to shower and get ready for my classes

I shower and do my skin care and I had to wash my hair because it was greasy and overall needed the hair products

I sigh and rub my eyes, the only makeup I do is mascara and lipgloss, not what I usually do, due to not having any fucking energy

That person has been texting me making sure I haven't talked to Silas and it's draining because they keep threatening me even if I stand near him.

So I have a feeling I can't sit next to him in class, I throw on sweats and a tank top before grabbing a zip up.

I don't wanna go to breakfast so I just grab a pack of gum and a snack with water

I walk out of my dorm and go to my first class it's hard to pay attention when all I want to do is cry, do I even have a right to feel this way?

I mean it's my fault that this is happening, right? Maybe I should've told Silas about that person in my dorm? Maybe he would've helped me.

Or he could call you a liar, no stop, please. It's the truth, go away. You know it is. Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up.

My head snaps to the person who tapped me "you okay?" Annie says and I nod she sits next to me "how come you weren't with Silas at breakfast? He was waiting for you with a fruit salad without kiwis?" She says and my eyes widened

Silas walks in a few minutes later and I'm shocked he still bought me food, and had to waste it, I feel like throwing up just thinking about it.

I shake away my thoughts and force myself to pay attention even though it's hard

Because all I want to do is have Silas hold me, tell him about that person, tell them how they made me do this and threatened me, and tell him about what Ryan did.

And I know that no matter how many times I'll tell him not to do something about it, he will, Silas would do whatever it takes to protect me and he's proven that.

I draw in my notebook not paying attention to anything that's happening, I walk out of the classroom when the bell rings

None of my friends are in this class unfortunately, I sit in the back and after a few minutes I feel someone behind me and I feel like I'm behind paranoid

I'm not. I flinch when I see hands being placed on both sides of me and feel a breath on my neck "rumor has it the little slut is single." Henry says

I bite my tongue "I'm assuming that means your allowing people in your dorm again, yeah?" I shake my head I thought he was gonna stop, but apparently he was waiting for Silas and I to break up to be an asshole again

"Why not? I've sorta missed you, no one gives me what I want like you did, Sophie." My stomach turns at the nickname

"Don't call me that." I say I feel his lips against my neck "then give me what I want, that's all." I shrug away from him which pisses him off

Because he goes to do something but the teacher thankfully walks in, my leg bounces and I feel like I can't breathe, I feel Ryan and I hate it, I hate it so much.

I grab my bag and rush out of the room not caring for the teacher yelling after me.

I rush to my dorm and try going through my bag to find my keys but I can't, my eyes are blurry with tears, my breathing is uneven, I'm suffocating right now, I can feel my clothes, my skin, the tears streaming, the tightens in my chest.