Pleasing Silas

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-Sophia Russo-

I stare at Silas skeptically he's acting a little strange "what do you want for your birthday?" He asks and I shrug "not sure, I'll be fine with mostly anything." I say drawing on his chest

He said he wanted to get more tattoos, so I'm drawing something for him, I've learned from the first time to not write something I find funny.

He still has his 'grump' tattoo, I like that we both have something in common with our tattoos, that I drew them.

I stare at the draw I did and frowned when I messed up the line "what's wrong?" He asks, i sigh "I messed the line up" I say and Silas shrugs

I was doing small designs, I drew a lightning on his hand like actual lightning, not like those little funny lightning bolts you'd get as stickers and emojis

"When's your appointment?" I ask Silas looks over at his phone "later today." He says and I nod

It's two p.m. right now, so maybe four or five, I'm not sure what I'm drawing at this point

I stop drawing and stare at them you can't see the messed up line until it's pointed out, but it bothers me

If I try and fix it I could make it worse, I bite my nail staring at it, I feel my hand being grabbed "what's wrong?"

"The line is messed up, it's bothering me." I say, Silas shrug "I'm sure it'll be perfect, Tesoro, after all it's from you." He says kissing my forehead

I sigh "my mother called me again.." I say she's called and texted me, I'm not sure what to do. "Oh? Why?" Silas asks

"For money, and then she was asking why I don't have money for her.." I state "what did you do?" He asks

I go quiet. I felt bad, I tried explaining to her that I was fired from my last job due to what happened.

She told me I had to make up for what I did. I tried holding back that urge to give her money but I didn't.

I sent her twenty dollars but it wasn't enough. "Sophia. Answer." Silas says

I swallow the lump in my throat "I-I uhm, I gave her twenty dollars..." I whisper

Silas tilts my chin up "why?" He asks softly "she told me I had to make up for 'killing Ryan' but the twenty dollars wasn't enough.." I say ashamed

"Did you give her anymore?" I don't open my mouth, Silas sighs "I-" he cuts me off "don't apologize."

"Never apologize for trying to fix something you didn't damage, your mother damaged your relationship with her, don't give her any money, Tesoro, if she asks tell me." He says kissing my lips softly and I nod

Silas throws his shirt back on and I change out of my pajama's

I throw my hair up into a ponytail and add a bow "you know, you still haven't let me put a bow on you, grump." I tell him and Silas rolls his eyes "when we get back, then." He says and I grin at him

Once I finish putting on mascara and lipgloss we leave, it doesn't take long to get there Silas and I walk in and he talks with the person at the front desk

I look at the book they have for designs, I wonder if I can draw any of these "you getting one to?" He asks I shake my head

And he nods I frown when he takes the book away though, I follow Silas to the back and sit near him

"Just outline the drawings." He tells the tattoo artist "oh, that's right your the one who got some drawings tattooed." He man grumbled

I frown wondering if he's making fun of them "yeah, when my girlfriend offers me something I take it." Silas said staring straight into his eyes

The artist looks over and me then at Silas and grabs the tattoo thing and does what Silas wanted

Once he's done Silas pays "you know, I did get your hand writing tattooed, you should get mine tattooed." He says grinning at me

I shrug "that's copyright, I'm copyrighting you then." I say as we walk out, I do wanna get 'tesoro' tattooed on but with a heart at the end like Silas did for me

We drive back to campus and go to my dorm i grin at him "now can I put a bow on you?" I say and he nods "only if, you get 'tesoro' tattooed in my handwriting, Sophia." He says and i shrug

"Deal, grump." I say before grabbing my ribbon, I make Silas sit on the bed and I sit in his lap trying to figure out where to put the bows, I could put one on his arm

"I'm taking a photo when I'm done, you aren't convincing me otherwise" I say to him

Silas rolls his eyes "fine." He grumbled I cut ribbon and tie small ones into his hair and tied one on his arm grinning at my work.

"I think I did amazing." I claim smiling at Silas he shakes his head "you did, Tesoro, I'm proud of you, so fucking proud." He says kissing my lips, I sigh as I relax into his arms

I'm glad we've come along way from just being partners for a project to boyfriend and girlfriend.

And I'm glad he loves me for me, every part of me, before I told him my story, and after I told him it, he still loved me, he didn't leave he stayed and helped, even after I was forced to breakup with him.

Even after I found out he's involved with a mafia he still stayed with me, that's what love it. Not what I've experienced in the past, he's helped me leave the past

No more being used, no more being terrified of Ryan finding me, and no more having to hear the nickname "Sophie"

I don't think I'll ever be okay being called that due to what happened, but that's okay, Silas told me it's okay to not want to be called something.

He's told me I've never overreacted when I think I do, he says my reaction is valid due to what happened.

Hearing him say how he's proud of me makes me happy, having him hold me and comfort me makes me happy, when we lay in silence listening to each others breathings, that, that makes me happy.

Just being with him makes me happy, the little things matter to me, and Silas knows that, he doesn't make fun of me for it, instead he pays attention to them and does those little things.

I'm inlove with him. I don't think I am, I know I am.

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This was written in study hall💀💀