Pleasing Silas

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-Sophia Russo-

*TW*

I want this to stop. I want to leave. I need to leave

My brother opens the door and he walks in, he has red eyes this time. Along with weed in his hands.

He crouched down to my level and moves my hair out of my face playing with that strand "hey there." He grins at me.

I'm frozen, I'm frozen as he takes his clothes off, as he takes mine off, i wince when I feel my back against the cold dirty floor.

"I love you so much Sophie, when will you realize that." Ryan said into my neck, I try and shake my head no which was a mistake because he freezes.

His eyes snap to mine "What." He grits, at this point I'm shaking in fear "what did you say Sophia." He grits.

He grabbed me by the hair making me wince "y-you don't love me." I mumble, he scoffs and pushes me down and gets up.

I watch him grab his clothes and watch as he paces back and forth "I fucking love you, no one else does, dad doesn't, mom obviously doesn't, and neither does that boyfriend of yours." Ryan shouts.

The tears run down my face at this point "no one would go this far for you Sophia, only I would." He says walking towards me.

It took me a while to realize that Silas would never hurt me, because that's not what love is. I'm glad Silas showed me what love is like.

My brother doesn't love nor care for me. If he did care about me he wouldn't do this, I watched as he stormed off and back with rope in his hands.

"If I have to teach you a fucking lesson about me loving you then so be it." He grits grabbing my hands and tying the rope around them tightly.

I wince "Ryan- tha-that hurts." He was tying it too tightly, I could feel my circulation being cut off.

But he doesn't stop "if that's how I'll teach you this lesson then good." And with that he walks out, my arms were tied up and I keep trying to free them.

I cry and cry the more it hurts, my wrists burn and all I can think of is "what did I do wrong?" And "why is this happening."

I must've made too much noise because after a while the door opens and Alexei storms in, his eyes flicker to me "what happened to your clothes." He asked with wide eyes, I sighed "he took them." I mumbled ashamed.

Alexei nods before walking away and back with a shirt in his hands, he cut the rope and hands me the shirt.

I hesitantly take the shirt from him and this time his eyes flicker to the blood on my thighs.

"T-thank you." I choke, my throat is dry and overall my body feels dehydrated.

He nodded and grabs more ropes yet this time they aren't to tight and he tied them behind my back. "I'm gonna need answers from you Sophia. I need to know about that Diaz family." He said.

I stare at him confused, answers? On what their fucking favorite colors or some shit? I don't know what he wants.

"What answers, I barely know that family." I said, I've only met them once or twice, so whatever answers he wants he's out of luck.

Alexei chuckled and pulled a chair over and sat on it "I'm sure you know exactly what kind of answers I want, and I'm going to ask you one more time sophia. What. Does. That. Family. Do." He grits the last part out.

I don't want to take chances on what'll happen if I don't answer, but I have no answers. I don't have the answers he wants, probably never will have them.

My eyes widened at the knives he sets down on a table "I'll get those answers, don't worry, actually I'm already getting some, I can't tell you who's giving them, we rather have everyone finding out at the same time." He emphasis "everyone"

I swallow the lump in my throat "now my hand writing isn't as nice, but I've been told to crave what you had on your arm again." His hand clamps down on my arm, he holds me down and cuts the rope off my hand "I don't want to hear anything out of your mouth." He grits grabbing a cloth

He shoves it in my mouth and pins my arm down, I scream as loud as I possibly can, I try shoving him off but he's too strong.

Especially due to the fact I've barley had food or water, I can't remember the last time I actually ate a meal, I feel like time is moving slowly.

I feel like I've been here for months or years, I've been here for too long

Alexei finally stops and grabs the cloth, a sob leaves my mouth, at this point I doubt there's any tears left, i have a feeling I'm too dehydrated for tears to leave.

Just worthless pathetic sobs leaving my mouth as I stare at my arm, the same thing is written as before, except it seems like it's deeper.

Silas's slut

This is the third time it's been done. I feel a hand on my hair and back "I told you I didn't want to hear anything coming from you." He says and I try to suck in a breath.

I tap my fingers on my leg, pretend it's Silas's heartbeat. I tell myself, count forwards, count backwards

"Such a shame, I thought i could be nice with you, apparently I can't." He states and I sit there, numb.

That's how I feel, I bite my tongue and try to think of anything, anything but this. Maybe the way Silas holds me, maybe his laugh, his tattoos, how he lets me talk, how he loves when I talk about my bows and my love for green, or maybe Bambi.

I remember her biting Silas's sweats making him fall, and watching Moana with the green LEDS on.

I let out a relieved breath when I realized Alexei left, I wipe the blood off my arm and stare at it, I frown.

I want to be with Silas again, I liked being around him because I felt so happy, so safe, I've never really felt that way with anyone.

Sure I was happy, but not as happy, and no one's ever made me feel safe like Silas does, no one's ever been able to read me like he can, or check on me like he does, or even defend me knowing there's consequences.

I smile to myself thinking about everything he's done for me. And something tells me he is here, physically or emotionally, he's still here.

I wanted to cry to this dont worry y'all Silas will have her back😋

It'd be cool if I finish this book this week tbh🫢

Cause my friend is reading chasing Evelyn and is on chapter 13 and I wanna get this out before they finish chasing Evelyn😭😭

That way they can stop wondering what I'm doing to a certain someone🫢

Waiting room makes me wanna cry. It reminds me of finny and autumn, reminds me of Elijah and Evelyn like UGHHHH

😞😞

Especially the remix of waiting room x fix you GOODBYE GOODNIGHT 😭😭

GOD THAT DESTROYS ME I CAN JUST HEAR THE "tears stream, down your face" DURING THE BASE OF WAITING ROOM😭😭

I am not okay after reading that, and I don't wanna read his pov or jacks or autumns again

STOP FINE LIKE IS NOW ON😭 I can't yall, I can't I'm not winning today

Anyways😞 I love you stay safe and please votee🫶🏼🫶🏼

-Alana