chaotic life

8 uncertain

(A/n whatever knowledge is shared in this chapter is from my own perspective and goggle) 

Isha's P.O.V 

I'm stressed and on the verge of losing my sanity. Exams are a very crucial time for a student, whether it be school, college or any other form of exam. 

Understanding the concepts, revising, performance, speed, time management, and results are enough to give nightmares to a student. 

A month has passed since my exams had started and tommorow is the last one, but it doesn't mean that I will be free from struggles, no Infact now is when the most important phase of life starts.

Completing the bachelor's has no value in this society as of now, until and unless you don't hold a proper professional or business degree along with the skill enhancement certificates. 

With the ongoing competition in the world it's even more challenging to get a job forget about a high paying one. To live a comfortable live it's important we have a side income or a passive one. 

Feeling a bit hungry since I was studying for a long duration of time I desend down the stairs. That's when I hear my name from my parents room, evarsdroping is a bad habit but since it involves me so meh. 

The conversation between mumma papa flows like this ~~

"Ab kya hoga?"
(“now what will happen “)

"Kis baare mein?"
(“about? “)

"Isha ki further studies."
(“Isha's further studies “)

"Sakshi, main tumse jhoot nahi bol sakta, lekin main uski further studies ka kharcha nahi utha sakta."
(“Sakshi I won't lie to you but I can't support her further studies “)

"Par aapne toh kaha tha ki aap manage kar loge."
(“but you said you will manage “)

"Tum samajh nahi rahi ho, humare paas Ishan bhi hai, ek din Isha humse door chali jayegi, hume usko padhana hai ya apne bete ko, isse behtar hai ki hum is paisa ko apne bete par kharch kare."
(“you aren't getting it we have Ishan too, one day Isha will leave us what will we get by educating her so it's better to spend this money on our son instead of her “)

"Par uske bhi sapne hain."
(“but she has dreams “)

"Usne humari financial condition jaan rakhi thi na, usko chadar ke bahar pair failana nahi chahiye tha."
(“she knew about our financial condition didn't she, she shouldn't extended her feet out of the sheet “)

"Par--"
(“but –”)

"Mujhe kuch nahi sunna. Humare paas limited resources hain, aur hume unhe samajhdar tareeke se istemal karna hoga."
(“I don't want to hear anything.We have limited resources, and we need to use them wisely. “)

Sensing my father's footsteps approaching I quietly go back to my room, my throat is clogged up and there are unshed tears in my eyes but I don't let them fall somewhere I knew this was going to happen. 

I had worked hard to excel in studies, dreaming of a future where I could pursue my passions and achieve the goals. But now, faced with my parents' refusal, I felt like my dreams were slipping away.

Hailing from a simple middle class family, where daughters are considered as guests it's no wonder my father thinks the same. My future is in my hands ,either I get successful on my own or get married according to papa's wish. 

My mumma can't do anything about it, being a housewife she has always followed papa's words, has always been submissive to him that's why I have no hope from her now. 

Making up my mind, I start collecting whatever money I have stored, either from my dairy or from my safe alongside checking my bank balance.  I wish to attain a diploma in financial management and for that I need 60,000 INR .

No I don't have that much money but whatever I have I will find some way out, 

My savings come up to 22,000 INR. 

*sigh*

But I was resilient and determined, and I would find a way to pursue my dreams, no matter what obstacles lay in the path.

Deciding to look into this matter tommorow after my exams I start studying once again, my appetite being dead long back 

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