"the bullet hit but maybe not
I feel so fucking numb
İt hits my head and ı feel numb
My body's looking wrong."
[TW: s€lfh@rm, Schizophrenia, manipulation, self-loathing, thinking about suicide, stabbing herself.]
Ashlyn looked at to mirror, to her body. Why would ı always have to be pain in the ass for my friends or my parents? She thinked.
She looked at to mirror again, to her ears, she was hating them, why cant they just be normal like everyone's else? They are just make her feel like a freak and making her think everybody is being careful around her because of their pity to her.
Ashlyn couldnt stand it anymore, hitted her Palms to washbasin's marble, and looked at herself for one last time.
She finded a solution for herself, she will not gonna hear everything from now on, or that was only her thoughts but everything went wrong.
Ashlyn walked to kitchen patiently, she opened the drawer slowly, taked a little knife that can help her. The long-haired shadow next to her talked with a cold voice.
"yes, ash. You're doing the right thing, come on just do the thing you should have done years ago." the shadow tried to manipulate her, putted İts hands to on her arms and positioned them in the way that knife there.
"no.. No, no, no. You're trying to controlling me." Ashlyn tried to save herself from the shadow, she is trying to clearing her brain to let that shadow go.
"Ash come on ı am you, why would ı ever do something to hurt you? I only want to save you." it tried to manipulate her, ashlyn doesnt wanted to believe it but she couldnt controlled her brain and taked the knife and slowly started to walk to bathroom.
"trooper?" she heard her dad's voice but she couldnt looked back, the shadow, it's controlling her. Her face have a crazy smile so she tilted her head and maked her way to bathroom.
Her inside is screaming to her father mike to save her, she was feeling like a hopeless little child.
Mike thought that she's just sleepy and he walked to kitchen for have a cup of water.
Ashlyn looked to mirror again, this time with coldness in her eyes. "Ashy~ come on just do it, it will help you to stop being a freak." Ashlyn wanted to talk, to answer but she couldnt.
The shadow's words started to controlling her, it started to let her think its words were right and she holded the knife tightly.
Ashlyn stabbed her right ear and felt a unbearable pain, she couldnt help but scream, she feeled that her right ear started hear more and more, the last thing she saw before her eyes went black was her father and mother running to her from bathroom door.
She opened her eyes again and heard many voices. Too noisy, so loud.
Ashlyn seed her friends and their families when healthcare workers carrying her to ambulance with a stretcher.
The shadow was watching her from a distance, the last thing ashlyn heard was a mumble from it, "stupid" then her eyes went black again
Who Knows she will gonna wake up or not? Who knows?
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