☆One and the same☆ (Sun and Moon fanfiction)

Chapter 22

🌜Moondrop's🌛POV:

          Sundrop and I were in our room, sitting on our bed and talking. I listened to him talk and explain how some things happened and how they led to other things that seemed not to be right. At the moment, I was not sure of how to feel anymore. He always said that he did everything for my own good and to protect me, but I did not even want to believe it because he never actually gave me a valid reason to believe him. Did he really do all of this purely out of love for me...?

🌞- I am sorry, Moony... I just didn't want to lose you... I am so, so sorry...

🌜- ... Is all of this true?

🌞- True...? You want to say that you do not believe me?

🌜- N-No! Of course not... I just... Did not know.

🌞- It's okay... I understand why you acted the way you did. I admit that I did a wrong thing and that I have never actually explained to you what was going on at all...

🌜- Thank you for... Saving me. I appreciate what you did there, but you should have told me! We could have thought of something together, you know? If we could do everything together, like one, we could have thought of something for that too! Nothing of this should have happened at all! Only if you told me sooner...

🌞- Oh, I know... I know! And now when I understand that... This guilt will never leave me. I am so sorry for what I did...

🌜- No, it's fine! I-I already forgave you! I understand you now... I get why you did what you did. You just had to tell me what was going on, that's all...

🌞- I was stupid for that, very stupid, and I'm so, so sorry...

          Sun continued to apologize to me for what happened as I stared at him with a sad expression. Gladly, he couldn't see me because of the dark. After he explained all of this to me, I felt less hatred for him, almost none at all. I felt more guilty for hating and blaming him in the first place now...  Looks like he really did all of this just out of love and desire for protection... Was only the lack of communication the problem this entire time? Really? That's it?

🌜- Sun, stop apologizing, please! I understand you now...

🌞- I just... Missed you. Even after we got separated, I felt so empty... A part of me was taken out, and that part is you! It is so quiet in my head even now... If it was not for Chica and Roxanne making me company all this time, I don't think I would be able to handle it.

🌜- I can not lie and say I did not miss you at all... I know I told you multiple times how I hated your voice. That you were too annoying, that you were too loud... Screaming. But once it was gone, I missed it. I want some time for myself sometimes, but I do not want to be alone. It's an empty space that you used to fulfil... That only you can fulfil.

🌞- I... I see...

🌜- You are, in fact, important to me, Sun. You are a part of me, and I realize that. My mind felt so quiet, so quiet after getting separated... Well, unless I was talking to Monty. Sun, I love talking to you. I miss us sharing our thoughts about everything and watching the stars every night... I just wanted some privacy and time for myself. That's all.

🌞- That is very reasonable... Again, I am so sorry about that. I just couldn't... Let go of you.

🌜- I don't think I want to let go of you either.

          While Sun was looking distressed, sad, and guilty, telling by his face expressions and body language, I came closer to him and wrapped my arms around him. I hugged and held him tight. He seemed surprised at first because he couldn't see it coming. Both in literal and metaphorical sense. He was shocked for a moment but leaned in and hugged me back soon after.

🌞- Why are you forgiving me so easily...?

🌜- It's was not that easy. It took us a long and painful journey... It took us ignorance, avoidance, and even death to realize that.

🌞- ... True.

🌜- Oh... What people do out of love...

🌞- I love you, Moony...

🌜- I love you too, Sunny. I love you too...

          Out of love... Out of love... All of this sadness, anger, hatred, bitterness, tragedy, arguments, dying... And everything was because of... Love? It is hard, no, almost impossible to believe. How can love bring so much tragedy between two souls...? Nothing of this should have even happened... And here we are. Telling each other how we love one another like nothing even happened while holding each other in a tight hug.

          We were both silent now. No one dared to say a word. But then... Could any more words even do anything at the moment? Sometimes, it's the action that counts. Not everything has to be said, and not everything needs to be said... Sometimes, silence, darkness, and the affection from our loved ones are all we need in the given moment. Something so simple, yet something so very effective and meaningful... Sometimes, that's all we need. Nothing more, nothing less.

          His hug is so... So warm. As warm and comfortable as a burning sun... His warmth melts my ice coldness. He warms up my freezing heart. He is the one who shines so bright and who lights up all of the unbearable, picth black void of darkness which consumes my soul. He is the joy and happiness that brights up the world for my sad self. He is the sweet and joyful morning voice that makes my long and silent nights better. So this is that hug... Which from neither of us can let go.

🐊- Ay, Sun! Where are you this long?