☆One and the same☆ (Sun and Moon fanfiction)

Chapter 19

🌜Moondrop's🌛POV:

          Sun is cleaning the slide after refusing to let me do it. I cleaned myself, but I am still in clothes covered in dried blood. I have no reason to waste new ones when I'm not gonna need any soon anyway... I am sorry for what I am going to do, but my misery does not have to be the misery of other innocent little souls. That's not fair. Why should sweet innocent souls suffer because of my flaws? Because of my existence?

          I'm not mad at Sun anymore. It's fine. He did what he did to at least try to protect me. He didn't know better. Maybe I deserved it. Maybe I never had any right to be angry in the first place. Maybe it's all just my fault, and I'm looking for excuses. It's my fault. I... I won't wait anymore. I'm sick of waiting.

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🌞Sundrop's🌞POV:
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          I don't know what to do now. I'm here, cleaning stupid blood, while my dearest person is thinking about killing himself, and I don't know how to stop him. He went to our room, but once again, he's just alone with his thoughts, and I'm scared to check on him, and because I might say something wrong that would make everything even worse... I don't know how to deal with this.

          Everything that happened is indeed serious, and I'm too stupid to think of a solution for it... I made a terrible mistake and now I might lose the most important person to me. I knew I hurt him deeply, but this much...? It's all my fault... I made him think it's his fault that he is a mistake and a monster!I made him think the things he thinks right now... It's my fault that he doesn't like living anymore.

          Life has so much to offer, and even if we are animatronics that are allowed to do so much, we can still make the most of it with this little free will. Moon was always quiet, never disturbing anyone, but he knew how to find joy every now and then. Oh, he was such a talker with me in the beginning! We talked about so everything, spoke about so many things... Then he didn't speak almost at all.

          I took the joy out of his life. Restricted him from everything and locked him up in our head... Thinking it was the best for him. He has all right to hate me if he decides to... He can hate me for the rest of the life! But I need to make him stay in that life. I want him to find the joy I took from him... There is Monty. They became great friends! Maybe that's a good start? They can continue hanging out with each other and be happy together, meet with others if he wishes so... Anything.

          Maybe that's it! I could go and find Montgomery quickly and bring him here so he and Moony can talk together for a bit. He might listen to him more than me... Now, Monty doesn't really like me, but he will cooperate if he cares about Moon, hopefully. It really pains me, but it might get us somewhere, I don't know... I am going to find him. It is already midnight, so the show has already ended some time ago. He must be free now.

          I ran to Montgomery's room as fast as I could because I did not want to leave Moon alone for longer than I had to. I saw him lying on his bed. He noticed me through the glass and went to open the door. I rushed in and started explaining what was happening.

🐊- Yo bro, what's going on? Why so panicky? - He questioned, confused.

🌞- You are NOT gonna believe this!

🐊- Try me.

🌞- So, uh- In short, Moon needs you! Please, you need to go and talk with him now, or you never will otherwise!

🐊- What does that mean?

🌞- Okay, okay. I'll slow down... So, I was bored after closing the Daycare and then he came. I thought he's finally ready to talk, and we could solve everything. But he was covered in blood, apologized for making a mess, and said he was gonna end himself!

🐊- He wants to do WHAT!?

🌞- I tried to reason with him, but he ended up blaming himself for everything, and now I don't know what to do! He went to our room and I cleaned the place. I didn't want to go and possibly say anything I shouldn't to him, so I thought maybe you could have a somewhat reasonable talk with him before he does anything stupid!

🐊- Damn... It really got to him. Well, uh, then- What are we even doing here!? Wasting time? My best friend dying isn't on my bucket list!

          We rushed back to the Daycare. Monty brought a long ladder so he could get up to the 'Sky stage' balcony and enter our room. We went in slowly so we didn't scare Moon, but he wasn't there!

🐊- Where is he!?

🌞- I don't know! How can I know? Wait, there is a letter on the bad.

🐊- Give it to me. Let's see...

          I'm sorry, Sun. I didn't mean to end it like this. Please, just know that it's not your fault, and please, never blame yourself for my mistakes and decisions. I made a lot of terrible and unforgiving mistakes. Recently, I did some unspeakable horrors. I ended innocent lives of little souls that just started living. What's one more? My life is nothing. I don't even have a soul. I don't have a greater purpose like they had. I'm nothing but a danger to everyone else. Thank you for trying to protect me, Sun, I kinda appreciate it. And please tell Monty that I am sorry. I enjoyed every second of his company, and I deeply appreciate his loving support. He was the best friend everyone could just dream of. Don't let him blame himself. He did even more than enough, and I'm happy for it. Tell him I love him. I love you too, Sun. Don't blame yourself. I'm sorry.

🌞- ...

🐊- ...

🌞- What no-

🐊- We must find him. Where could he be?

🌞- I don't know... Maybe-

🐊- ROOFTOP!

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🌜Moondrop's🌛POV:
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          I was standing on the edge of the rooftop, right where Monty and I used to watch the stars together. What a lovely place to end it all, huh? I won't be missed anyway. I left a note on the bed to let them know that I love them and they shouldn't blame themselves. All I do is my fault. My bad decision. This way... My existence and awful doings won't bother or hurt anyone. The world is better without me. It's time for me to sleep now. Nighty night...

🐊- MOON!

🌜- AGH!

🌞- NO!

          I got startled by the sudden yelling and almost fell from the building. It was Monty who called me, and he ran fast to catch me so I didn't fall over the edge. Why didn't you let...

🐊- MOON! WHAT ARE YOU DOING, MAN!?

🌜- I... I don't-

🐊- DON'T DO THAT!

🌞- You almost fell down the building!

🌜- No... I'm sorry! I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... But I-I don't see the other way! - The black oil started rushing down my fave as a form of crying. I tried to back away in embarrassment, but Monty wouldn't let me go. He held me tight. - Let me d-die already! - I said angrily in a shaky voice while trying to wipe the tears that were smudged across my whole face.

🌞- No one's letting you die, Moon! - Sun hugged me from the side.

🐊- Moon, what were you thinking!? - He still held me tight, didn't let go.

🌜- I don't... I-I don't know, but you'll be happier without-out me! - I burst into tears. - I-I'm only causing misery with my-my pathetic self!

🐊- And you think jumping off the building will solve anything!? It won't! And did you think you wouldn't get fixed again anyway? Imagine living with that guilt then! Moon. You're not pathetic. You aren't dangerous. You not being around would only make things worse, the worst for you too!

🌜- I'm... I'm sor-sorry for making you deal with-with this!

🐊- You don't have to be sorry for anything! You thought I, your best friend, would just let you kill yourself? No! It's fine. We came on time. There is so much to life than this misery, Moon. And I will help you find your spark of life again. You just need to give yourself a chance!

          I am a total failure. I am pathetic. I am a crybaby. I am a disappointment. I can't even die without failing at it too.