☆One and the same☆ (Sun and Moon fanfiction)

Chapter 15

🌞Sundrop's🌞POV:

          I am genuinely starting to get worried about Moondrop. I did not see him at all these days, and we are supposed to open the Daycare, as well as the whole Mega Pizzaplex, tomorrow morning! He would have to come back... I just want to see him again. Will he even talk with me when he comes back? I hope so...

         Why would he be avoiding me for this whole week? What happened? Hmm... Yeah, we died, but it was in such an unfortunate situation! I don't blame him for that at all, I never said that! I know it's partly my fault. That should have never happened... There must have been a better way to make things right, better than that... At least we separated, I guess?

          But, is it even that good that we separated? I guess it's more free time and freedom for both, but... I don't know. My original concerns are still there, to be fair, but it's for his own good... I never meant harm. Did I do it the right way, though? I did not, it seems. From his crues and screams, I see how unpleasant it must have been... I am sorry for putting you through that, Moony.

          Realistically, I really shouldn't be concerned about such scenarios happening ever again. It was not his fault that day. He was not in control of what he was doing. We are only animatronics, after all. I was just scared that if it repeats, they won't hold back this time... As a 'lifeless machine', I can not do much against humans. They don't really care. We both might end up being decommissioned and scrapped! That would not be good.

         And now, because I tried to protect him, he probably hates me... I suppose that he has every right to hate me. I did it wrong. So wrong. Looking at it, I wouldn't be so happy if my closest friend just put me into an everlasting paralysis and sleep, with little to no explanation. Also, that bit of information that is given sounds highly offensive and accusing of terrible things. I understand...

          Even if we put that aside, those scary concerns and fears... I miss him. I really miss my Moon. I miss hearing his quiet, calm and soothing voice every single day and night. I miss watching the stunning night sky with him. I miss talking to him about everything. Either about the day, about children, or just random and silly thoughts we had and wanted to share with each other! I miss having him with me in everything I do.

          Am I just... Afraid of letting him go? We were together for so long, for as long as we exist! Everything we did, everything we said, everything we decided, we did it together. We did it as one. That has been going on for so long that he does not want to be one anymore... He wants to be his own person, I could understand that. But it hurts to let him go so suddenly...

          This is my personal issue then. Who's fault it is that I don't know how to deal with problems other than completely ignoring them, locking them away hoping for a solution to just fly in my hands and pretend like some things never even happened? Who's fault it really is for me not being able to just let go of some people? People who got tired and sick of me. That is my fault.

         How do I apologize for all of that? Is Moon even going to accept it? Ever? I might have given him some trauma... He doesn't want to speak to me. Me randomly coming to apologize at some point wouldn't be as... effective? At first? It would sure take time... I messed up. I messed up so badly, and now I do not know how to fix it. I am the only one to blame here.

          Moments like this come every now and then. The moments when you are alone in your own space, whatever it might be your sweet room that you either love for being your comfort space or hate for being a place where you do nothing but rot on a daily basis or some other place, just sit and think. Think to yourself. Talk with your inner voice. I am not sure if it is healthy to do it often, probably not, but everyone needs to think and acknowledge some things at some point...

          I need to do something. These days, I made some new friends. They are very nice and funny. Even Freddy is much friendlier than I originally thought he would be. That is great. It is nice that I started talking to other animatronics in the Mega Pizzaplex after so long. Maybe rules don't have to be followed as strictly... As long as there is no trouble. There's no need to be a rude rulebreaker.

          Only Montgomery is there that I didn't get to get along with. We spoke a very few times as well. I'm not sure I want him as a friend much. I might be wrong about him, but I guess it's just not the vibe. Not everyone vibes with anyone. As much as we would like to befriend everyone in this world and be the best of the friends forever, we all know that that's just not possible, sadly.

          But on the other hand, I am glad that at least Moon seemed to get along with him pretty well. I would not be surprised if they spent these days mostly being together somewhere. That's actually nice. I am happy that there is someone to be with my Moony. It would be scary to be alone all this time with who knows what kind of thoughts rushing through his head...

          I am more than glad that Moon found a friend he trusts and genuinely likes being around. I guess that everyone needs that one special someone for their company. Children get along with each other, but everyone has their 'favourites' and friends they just trust more than others. That is a natural thing. It can be just from good vibes or something bonded you together to become inseparable. That's really cute, isn't it?

          Tomorrow, our 'Superstar Daycare' will be open again with the rest of the Mega Pizzaplex. Everyone is going to get so busy again. I will miss hanging out with Chica and Roxanne all day, but I have a job. Oh, Gosh! I have to make sure the Daycare is as clean as possible for little ones! Well, I guess I will soon start cleaning everything to be as clean as a tear for tomorrow morning.

          Maybe Moon is going to come right for the opening in the morning, to great the kids and show them that he is finally back or he might even come earlier tonight! But that just a thought. It's probably not going to happen, knowing how things currently are. Moondrop might come right on time for the 'Nap time' too! I hope he still does remember the schedule for it. We just got some new picture books for children as well to read before sleeping. That was his favourite part of the 'Nap time'

          Oh, Moony... If there only was a way for you to see me the same again. If there onlu was a way for us to be friends like we always were. We might still have a chance to be nice friends, but will it ever be the same again? I wish I believed so... I did things wrong. I tried to protect you but in such wrong way... I took away your freedom, and I took away your life. I am sorry.