Nobody asked me but.. Cancer

Next steps

Well there have been many next steps. Labs, oh lord so many labs. Picc line flushes and Heparin locks. cT scans and pet scans. Test after test to make sure nothing was overlooked or missed. We did not sleep at all but there was a glimmer later on of something like sleep. We got biopsy results back and had to discuss treatment. We picked the 2nd protocol of the 3 options given. It made the absolute best sense after hearing in depth detail about each one. Even making a solid decision you stand by doesn't make it seem easier for carry out in motion. I was terrified of all kinds of things. My teenager being allergic to meds she had never taken before. Of course the elephant in the room of losing her hair. Yes we discussed that in great lengths how my baby who loves changing up her hair color and style all the time, who had just grown her hair out would be losing it all soon. I thought she would cry, but I never saw her. When I asked if she did she said while I was sleeping. It made me sad that I couldn't see her and comfort her. She was too strong and wouldn't let me. I am finally seeing that my child is just like me.