Nobody asked me but.. Cancer

Nothing

They never tell you with chemotherapy that nothing agrees with your stomach. Everything gives you gas. You may experience moments of gas and needing to barf all at the same time. My kiddo cannot hear talk about food as it becomes nauseating. Certain smells of food just turn her stomach. I can recall having to eat a bowl of chili in my bedroom with the door closed. To me, that was pretty strange. But, anything for my baby girl. I have realized no one ever warned me that there is nothing you can say to your kid as their hair falls out. Nothing you say or do can make that better. My baby is reminded every time she looks at her pillow and sees her hair has fallen out, every time she puts a cap or a wig on. It's cancer reminding her. I was not warned about any of this. I just had to graciously approach these foreign life experiences that we had never had before. I honestly, sigh only worry about how my baby feels and making her feel better. I worry about my Bean. Me and everything mine can come later. It is how I have coped and it seems to be working. I can say there have been so many laughs between the two of us that melts my heart. Yes, cancer absolutely sucks. The very oh so thin silver lining, is that I get to spend tike with my favorite girl uninterrupted. Cancer stopped us in our tracks, but time made us slow down and pay attention. To look, and not just see what is in front of us. We are more
aware of everyday life things that seemed less significant before. Like when my child tells me the sunset is beautiful. I take the time to see what she sees. That is the tiny gift Cancer gave to us. However, make no mistake as we have no live for the Bastard. That's the tumor's name. Still, he doesn't pay rent, and he doesn't get to stay here. Nothing in this entire world could have prepared me for a what we have gone thru, or what is yet to come.