Nobody asked me but.. Cancer

Chemo Day

Well, labs are good and we're ready to start chemo. The whole day went by basically just waiting. Bean was with her dad and I made a brief escape to Walmart to gather some necessary supplies for our extended hospital stay. It was an oh so quick glimpse of  what I thought "normal" used to feel like. I had gotten my Bean some new makeup to cheer her up. I figured if you look good maybe you'll feel good. I had no idea how chemo would affect her. Bean gave off this sense of confident calm, even though unsure vibes circled. It was contagious. I learned upon my return from the store that chemo would be starting that night (Monday) about 730-8pm. It lasted until midnight. The machines would holler every time an iv bag was empty. Then came the heart protectant as this protocol could be rough on the heart. Finally about midnight we got to go to sleep. My kiddo in her hospital bed and me in my Dad-like pull out chair bed. Yep, the ones oddly similar to those in maternity wards. Our room was cold snd my blankets were paper thin no matter how many I asked for. Sleep took me away for the remaining hours of the night regardless.