i'm looking for a way to
figure out how to forgive you
i feel so brave when im alone
to think i could stand up to you
but i know id quiver and crumble
if i even gave an attempt
i feel so used and disgusting
a tragic traffic accident
who would've known i would end out the year
with a fucking bang
i gave myself away
i thought i was ready
but i begged and begged
and had to push you away
it's gotten to my head
and it can't be put to bed
ill wrestle with myself
even more tonight
i close my eyes and i can still see
myself in your truck
when you leaned in to kiss me
and then made me give in
and now i feel so guilty
when it should be you feeling that way
i gave myself away
i thought i was ready
but i begged and begged
and had to push you away
it's gotten to my head
and it can't be put to bed
ill wrestle with myself
even more tonight
ooh, even thought it was reluctant
i shouldn't have said yes
ooh, i knew i wasn't ready
and i still let you deface me
you assaulted me
that's the end of the story
and you can twist things your way
but i will know the truth
you were the abuser
and i the victim
i don't know if ill be able to forgive you
at any point in my life
but i know one day ill meet someone
who'll take their time with me
