i thought i had found the one
we'd talk through the middle of the night
but i guess i really didn't
cause it turns out he didn't want me
and it's so traumatizing to me
cuz we're still friends and i still love him
can you even call it love?
when we're never even gonna date
i don't know why i fight with myself every day
it's not like he wants me
so why am i so hard on myself
he fucks with my head daily
but damn it i'm so in love with him
i just wish he would give me a chance
so we could see if shit was actually worth it
if everyone tells me that i'm so special
then why am i not special enough for love
call me toxic, call me manipulative
but i think im really good at scheming my way
into making guys like me for a quick minute
or enough for a quick fuck
i don't know why i fight with myself every day
it's not like he wants me
so why am i so hard on myself
he fucks with my head daily
but damn it i'm so in love with him
i just wish he would give me a chance
so we could see if shit was actually worth it
he can't see the smile i'm faking
and the heart that's still breaking
every time i look in his eyes
i don't need it. but i do, i do, i do
send me a sweet message
tell me you love me
but then you follow it up with
you're one of my best friends
i don't know why i fight with myself every day
it's not like he wants me
so why am i so hard on myself
he fucks with my head daily
but damn it i'm so in love with him
i just wish he would give me a chance
so we could see if shit was actually worth it
