Dixon? Grimes?

Chapter 55: We where happy once

Chapter 55| We where happy once

"The passwords 4,3,2,1."

I smiled bigger as I slid the iPod to unlock typing in the password.

"But how did you-"

"When we where at your house and I picked it up I just slipped it in my pocket."

"How is it still charged?"

He flipped it over touching my hands in the process which made them feel numb.

"Garrett and I in our spare time fixed it so it's solar power now. The biggest difference is the pictures." He smirked.

I laughed and clicked on the picture icon. My camera roll was full of random pictures of Garrett and Carl. Some of the prison. People inside the prison. One of my favorites was a picture of Beth and me taking care of Judith. Beth was handing her over to me. They caught it right in the middle. I don't know how I didn't ever notice. Some where of just Beth selfies with Judith. Daryl, Michonne and Rick where in a few. I smiled at the thought.

We where all happy at one point.

My smile slowly disappeared and I bite my lip to prevent the tears.

"Have you ever wanted to go back in time and fix things you screwed up?" I asked my voice barley coming out. Afraid if I spoke any louder tears would replace my words.

"All the time." He said quietly not looking me in the eyes.

"I wish I could of forgave you earlier." I trailed off.

He took a step closer to me, his blue eyes finding mine. And I stared at them not wanting to ever have to leave his side. Getting lost in them. His hand found my only hand and he held it close to him. It felt perfect in his hands like they were made to fit together two lost puzzle pieces finally found.

"I wish I would of stood up earlier but at least I finally did. Like you finally forgave me. At least we are something now." He said.
My heart literally skipped a beat, and I tried my best to control the weird feeling in my stomach. I have never felt like this before felt my breath was taking away by some boy. I always thought it only happened in the movies where you feel completely in love with some stupid boy. Excitement mixed with worry and happiness, sadness all in one. It felt...amazing. I let his words replay in my head. 'What are we?'

It took all my strength to pull my eyes away from him, looking at my shoes instead. I knew where this was going and I didn't want this to happen. But I did at the same time. I wanted this.

"What are we Carl?"

He sighed and I finally allowed my eyes to get lost in his blue ones once again. Only then did I realize how close we where. How close I was to him, feeling his breath on my skin. His skin touching mine. We could almost....

"What do you think you are doing?!"

I closed my eyes and let out a deep breath. Cursing who ruined this moment.

"Get away from my girl?" Garrett said shoving Carl's shoulders.
Carl's hand let mine go and I wanted them back. I wanted him right by my side always.

"Garrett your drunk." I said softly.

He turned to me hate was in his eyes. Hurt. I did that.
I flinched just from his eyes. I'd never seen him so mad, so full of hate for someone. So hurt, so much anger towards me.

"Why did you lie to me Jos, why did you tell me you love me? When you don't"

His words hurt as if they where poison hitting my skin. I hated him feeling this way, I hated I made him feel this way.