The Im.Possible

Chapter 14: Near

'What do you mean you don't know where we are?' I snapped, losing my patience.

We were currently in the middle of a rain forest halfway across the globe from where it happened.

Okay so, you guys may have grown to understand that I'm not the touchy-feely type of person. So then, I was doing what I always do: I was over thinking. Over thinking about thinking about wanting to kiss Sebastian. I mean, I'd just found out how my parents died.

People do stupid things when they're upset right?

But somehow my brain wasn't letting me justify it. I was mad at myself for letting my walls down. Mad at myself for letting someone else's lips on mine. Mad at myself for letting Sebastian's lips on mine. Mad at myself for liking it.

So I did what I always did, what I knew was the only thing that worked for me. I closed up, I didn't let him in. I built the walls back up. I tried to shut him out.

Which ended up with me being colder than usual. Hence back to our current situation.

Sebastian's mouth opened and closed like a guppy gasping for air. I swear I was going to develop a creepy eye twitch or just strangle him. It all depends on how I'm feeling.

'Look Tara,'

'No,' I took a pace forward, squaring up to him. Letting him see my nostrils flare. 'don't you, look Tara, me. You've got us into this. I thought you knew where you were going! Are you that stupid? What, did you think this was just going to be some funny little road trip. Well I'm sorry for wanting my life back!'

Sebastian's face was full of raw emotion as he watched me rant. When I was done I clenched my fists and took a step away. I needed a minute.

My life has been ruined, in an instant. And the worst part is that it was all my fault. I blamed myself, of course I did. I didn't have to go through those tests. I let my intrigue about the life I wanted, about the life I had no idea about, get the better of me. And I was greedy enough to want something that maybe I shouldn't know. Maybe it would've been better.

But what good would a life of wondering do for me?

I certainly wouldn't be here.

I would still have my powers, or whatever they're called. Wonders was it?

I wouldn't have to hate myself because I wouldn't have kissed Sebastian.

His feelings are true, I'm pretty sure. And I lead him on, I let him kiss me. I let him think that I would just jump into his arms.

But, I would, be sat alone, wondering about what my life could be like.

'Tara, I understand that you're hurt, and you've lost your family. But you have to trust me. I know this guy's around here somewhere. And he'll know what to do. Please?' He looked so vulnerable. And for a second I softened. But hard exterior can't be broken down that easily. So gruffly, I gesture for him to continue before crossing my arms over my chest and grudgingly following on behind.

It was silent for a while. I concentrated on the sky's blush as the sun cast a complementary glow across the clouds. Making them glow. Like emotions the clouds washed over the sky, leaving the tainted pink sky behind, begging for the gold dust that seemed to settle on the tips of the clouds so one could marvel at the beauty of it all. The animals seemed to feel the same. A couple of hummingbirds sat, the reflection of the hues making their eyes light up, making them seem more alive as they watched the sun, and the others settle.

I marvel the world too. And I marvel it through other's eyes and minds. It may sound selfish but I like taking that opportunity, to see the world through another's eye. To feel what they feel when they look at something as simple yet stunning as the sunset.