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   I wondered why Daichi and Koushi were frantically running, I yell at them across the street but it falls into deft ears, something didn't seem right and I understood why when I saw the body of that person, bloody on the floor.

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   "I can't!" Koushi snaps "he's gonna die if I leave him there!" 
   "Sugawara!" 
   Daichi couldn't understand why the boy had so much love for that man, after everything how could he. 
   "You can't go back!" Daichi seizes Koushi's wrist, getting ready to run again, but, the lights.. and the sirens...
   In a blink of an eye, Koushi turned directions  to where he was running, he went back, no second thoughts, he went back and Daichi didn't try to stop him, because he knew, he might've lost Koushi already. 
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   "Please! Let me see him!" Pushing people around, desperate to get a glimpse of life in his partner eyes, Koushi was a mess, he felt doomed. 
   "Stop it already!" Someone snatches him away from the paramedics.
   "Kageyama? "
   "Why did you run away?" Anger on those words.
   Koushi freezes, he didn't mean to, he was afraid, he became blinded by the outside, but he came back..
   "But, I came back..."
   Those whispered faint words made Kageyama's blood boil for some reason, he didn't understand why his body was trembling in anger, in so much need to protect some guy that fucks him senseless with no fondness to it, he had feelings, he felt now, he has a chance. 
   Kageyama heads to the ambulance and soon departs on it, Koushi falls to the ground in defeat, what have him done.. he feels empty, cold, but arms hug him, he doesn't care who is it, he just feel it fully, and cry out the same thing over and over again. 
   "[Name], I shouldn't have left you."

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   "Stay away from him Kageyama." 
   Koushi always emphasize those words, he hates it, despise how things turned out, is been a month since the incident, [Name] has fully recovered and Kageyama took the chance to welcome him in for the time being, Koushi have tried to visit and make up for his actions countless times but [Name] has been avoiding him, but now having his life is back to normal, [Name] ways of being have come back too.
   "Ah! Why did you?–" Kageyama falls to the ground, his left cheek reddish.
   "Get up." [Name] commands.
   As soon as Kageyama is up in his feet, he falls again to the floor, tear swelling up in his eyes, teeths biting his lips, he gets on his knees. 
   "I'm sorry.. it's my fault. "
   Kageyama didn't understand, almost everything he did wasn't good enough for [Name], he was lacking, he got himself wondering what did Koushi did, how did he behave, at school he found himself spying on the boy, noting qualities to better peform for [Name], how can he be better, do better, for [Name].
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   "Kageyama" 
   "I don't wanna hear it Sugawara " 
   Koushi proceeded anyways 
   "I'm telling you Kageyama, to stay away from him." He sizes the boy wrist
   "Why so you can fake love him back?" Tobio sneered 
   "He's gonna hurt you, he already is.." Koushi  fingers tries to touch Tobio's cheek but is slapped away..
   "Fuck off."
   "You can't take him!"
   "I already did."
   "He loves me, and I love him!" 
   "Cut it off, you tried to kill him!
   "Hey! hey!, you two, enough" Daichi bossed up before this could escalate. 
   Koushi lower his head, holding in every tear that wants to scape from his eyes, Daichi worries for him, Kageyama scowl away and heads out not wanting to see Koushi as the victim.
   "Where' you going?" Daichi point out
   "I have to go home. "
   "Let me talk to you for a second. "
   They walk out of the school, Kageyama checking the time constantly sets Daichi back in to Koushi back then.
   "Listen to Koushi–"
   "You too?–"
   "Stay away from [Name], he's no good."
   "He changed–"
   "C'mon Kageyama, he fucked you twice and you think you know him that much?" "I see he hit you again today, is that doing something to your head?–"
   "Shut up!" Kageyama shouts, a part of him knows, he knows and everybody knows, but he doesn't want to believe in the truth that hurts.
   "Go home, I don't want you getting beaten up again." 
   "Does he even fucks you after, like he did to me?" Koushi comes taunting
   "That's enough Koushi. "Daichi pull the angry boy away.
   "Doesn't he aid you after either?"
   "Koushi stop, c'mon let's go." 
   Kageyama is ashamed to look up, he picks his pace to get home, and he hates the clouding thoughts in his mind, Koushi's words hurts.

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