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You and jj had been dating for a few months. You loved him so much and could trust him with basically anything. You and all the pogues were on the boat watching the sunset.
Your head was resting on jj's shoulder, his arm around your shoulders. He was acting off today and was already on his fourth drink in the past hour. "hey- jj" you grab his wrist as he goes to grab another beer.
"what?" he says, looking at you, confused.
"you've had for drinks in the past house, jj, you don't need any more" you say softly. He sighs and sits back down and is fiddling with the rings on his finger. Something was up and you wanted to know what but you decided you'd wait until you two were alone to ask him.
He was still fiddling with his rings so you put your hand on top of his in hope it would calm him down a little, it did but you were still worried.
Everyone headed back to the chateau and watched a movie. "who wants popcorn?" pope asked, everyone wanted some. pope handed out a bowl to everyone, you and jj shared one. "i'm going to go out for a bit i'll be back in an hour" said jj, no one really thought much of it and continued to watch the movie.
After the movie finished, everyone went to bed but jj still hadn't come home so you stayed up in the living room on your phone, waiting for him to come back. A few hours passed and he still wasn't back, it was 2 in the morning. You were about to go out looking for him when you hear his motorbike pull up.
He tries to walk in the chateau quietly but he doesn't realize you're sat on the sofa. "jay where have you been?" you ask as you stand up. He looks up from the ground and looks kind of guilty. "did i wake you up?" he asks.
"no, jj i was waiting for you. where have you been?" you repeat as you put your arms around his neck. "oh- i just went to the shop to.. to get some wax for my surfboard." he says, wrapping his arms around your waist. Obviously you didn't believe him but you were smiling at him.
Your expression quickly changes as you notice the cuts and bruises on his face. "jj what happened" you say quickly as you touch one of the cuts to see if its fresh, he winces as you touch it "i- i just fell off my motorbike, it's nothing honestly" again, you didn't believe him but you weren't in the mood to assume anything.
"come on, let's get you cleaned up" you say as you lead him into your bathroom. He sits on the bathroom counter, his arms around your waist as you stand between his legs. Every now and then he winces at the pain and you apologies but he assures you it's okay every time.
As he finishes up in the bathroom, you lay in bed and when he comes in he lays down on top of you, his head on your chest. You play with his hair as you both fall asleep.
The next morning, you were both woken up by John B telling you guys to get ready to go to the beach. You put on a blue and white bikini with some denim shorts. Today you didn't really feel like surfing or go in the water so you didn't take your board with you. JJ grabbed more drinks and held your hand as everyone walked down to the beach.
Everyone was having a nice time but you noticed jj having loads of drinks again. You were really worried about him and decided that tonight you were going to find out what's wrong. You took the drink out of his hand. "hey what was that for?" he says, annoyed.
"jj you've been drinking way too much you need to tone it down a bit, okay?" you say. He rolls his eyes "okay mom" he says sarcastically. Even though he did drink a lot, he was drinking twice the amount he usually was.
The day went on, jj had seemed anxious all day and you tried to calm him down subtly without him knowing that you noticed that something was wrong but nothing seemed to calm him down. It was getting late so everyone went back to the chateau and played a random board game.
"i'll be back in a bit" jj says as he got up and left. Again? You thought. As he left he grabbed another drink, you sigh as he walks to his motorbike. Again, everyone went to bed and you were waiting for him to return, this time he took longer.
The sound of his motorbike turning up returned, this time he saw you waiting and before you could even speak he came over to you and broke down into tears. "whoa whoa whoa, jj" you say as you stand up and hug him. "what happened jay?" you say softly but he doesn't respond as he's crying into your shoulder.
"once you've calmed down a bit, we're going to go on a walk along the beach, okay?" you whispered into his ear, he nods. You continue to stroke his hair and rub his back, eventually he stops crying.
It was already quite early, you hadn't realized how late you'd stayed up waiting for him. The sun had started rising and you and jj had started walking along the beach. "tell me everything jay" you say ad you grab his and sit down on some rocks.
He leans his head on your shoulder, "i um- i went back to my dad's house to grab something." he says as his voice starts shaking again. You grab his hand and rub it with your thumb. "he um, he hit me, harder than usual and um, he almost knocked me out" he said through tears.
"jj.." you say as you pull him in for a hug. "I'm always here for you, you know that right?" he nods. "you should've told me you were going home I could've came with you to make sure you were okay" you say as you rub his back.
"come on, lets go back, the others will start waking up soon" you say gently. He nods and you both start walking back towards the chateau. "is this why you've been drinking so much recently? And why you've looked so anxious?" you ask him, looking into his eyes.
"yeah, i guess. It's crazy how you pick up on little things about me" he says.
"Of course i'd notice, jay" you say as if it was obvious, but then you realize he almost looked almost like that comment made him sad. "no one has ever really noticed me the way you do y/n" he says as he looks at you and smiles.
"you deserve the best, jay, you really do" you say, you felt bad for him, his parents didn't act like parents and all of his past relationships had ended up with him getting cheated on.
When you get back to the chateau, you both decide to just sleep on the hammock. He lays his head on your chest as you run your fingers through his hair. You stop for a minute and he groans. "don't stop" he whines as he grabs your hand and places it back on his head. You laugh at him but continue playing with his hair. Both of you fell asleep in broad daylight, no one was bothered by you two being out there, so you both just stayed asleep until you felt rested enough to get up.
