I dare not think what would've happened if you had an answer for me
To indulge my mind with the very fantasies that got me here
I love you more than I can describe
Despite the fact I can't, shouldn't, and the very thought has people saying no
I don't think you'd ever love me back-
And I will never entertain the notion you do
It would be stupid, insane, and utterly unfair to you
But yet you said you wanted it
You said you wouldn't hate it
You don't know but you could-
You could love me
It's possible
You've known for a few months now and I can't tell
I can't tell if you look at me the same as you did before
It's almost funny, I have a boyfriend I don't want
Maybe one I never wanted
My last boyfriend didn't deserve what I did to them
And you definitely don't deserve a burden such as myself
You've seen me cry more than anyone else
You've watched my most vulnerable moments and you've stayed
Maybe that's why I fell for you
Head over heels
I said I'd wait but I know
Deep down
Even though I don't want to
You'll never want me, you'll never love me like I love you,
Never need me like I need you
I have entertained some thoughts of what it would be like
To be your partner
I won't turn out like the other
I can't
I won't
but, i'll be here
always, as long as you need me
even though i love you and you don't feel the same
it's complicated
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Head, Heart, and Soul
PoesíaTW: Contains use of profane language, suicidal thoughts, depictions and/or mentions of violent or otherwise disturbing acts, mentions of mental health issues, and other things that may be triggering to some audiences. Read at your own discretion, an...
