I've found a recent change in my mind
It may be a new personality or it may just be being truly happy since...
Well, I guess the for the first time
I spent so much of my childhood fighting
Years of abuse led to me fighting in the streets
It felt good to finally finally be the one to be dealing the punches, the one to cause the hurt
I always had some form of love in my heart I guess
Recently, I haven't felt the need to fight
I don't need to be first
I don't need to be the strongest and I absolutely don't need to fight to get there
I've fallen in love, I have a good best friend, I'm cutting out the toxic people
I'm making changes to hope I don't end up like him
I won't use the anger like a drug
I won't hurt someone else because I'm hurting
I won't make bruises on someone else because the bruises on my neck, arms, and body haven't healed yet
I don't want to hurt anyone that doesn't really truly absolutely deserve it
I just want to help
When asked if I'm a lover or fighter, my answer is often conflicted or untrue
I am both
I love wholeheartedly and quickly
I'm not afraid to protect that love.
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Head, Heart, and Soul
PoëzieTW: Contains use of profane language, suicidal thoughts, depictions and/or mentions of violent or otherwise disturbing acts, mentions of mental health issues, and other things that may be triggering to some audiences. Read at your own discretion, an...
