CROW (ITACHI X READER)

Chapter 25:

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I could finally relax when Itachi slid out of bed, he did it slowly; like he didn't want to wake me. I had been up for about an hour, staring at the wall and trying to mimic my sleeping breaths. Pathetic? Perhaps.

I wasn't sure how he'd react when we woke up, it's one thing to let lust blind us last night but in the light of day was a whole different story.

I meant what I said last night but Itachi isn't known to give in to my demands so easily. Hence why I was up at a ridiculous time and have not been able to go back to sleep.

"Going to keep faking?" His voice made me tense for a second and I cursed myself, if he wasn't sure I was faking it; he isn't now.

"I'm thinking about it." I mumbled.

He chuckled and I felt his lips press against the back of my head. "I'll let you avoid this a little longer while I talk to Zu."

"I'm not avoiding." I grumbled but buried my head deeper into the pillow.

For a few tense seconds it was nothing but silence, I could feel my body tightening. "I meant what I said last night. What we talked about." He murmured.

My eyes squeezed shut, my emotions causing a war inside me. How can two sentences fill me with joy and dread at the same time? I knew where the fear came from of course, I knew I trusted him but I also knew he held something back.

Something that kept us from going forward, that is what I didn't trust.

He kissed the back of my head. "I'll prove it." He whispered before I heard the bathroom door shut.

Only then did I feel comfortable enough to breathe, to think about how I wanted this to go forward. I meant what I said that i'd take Zu, laws and crazy men be damned but I knew in the end it would hurt Zu.

But could I trust Itachi? Fully? Even with this phantom pain he causes me when he holds that secret back? I knew the business, well, some of the business and I needed to decide if I wanted to know more. To demand more because I didn't see a different way.

Fucking men and emotions.

I wouldn't allow another death in this house, staining everything and traumatizing Zu. So the crossroads lay in front of me. Traumatize myself with the full knowledge of Itachi's business or leave.

I groaned quietly. "Fuck."

"You're thinking awfully hard."

"Go talk to Zu, Itachi. I need to organize all this before I even attempt at talking to you."

"Okay." He responded quietly. "I won't give up."

I didn't have a response to that and silently waited until he left. When the door closed, I shut my eyes tightly and groaned. Coward, I scolded myself.

After getting up and going through my morning routine, I felt a little more human. That is until I heard running footsteps before the door burst open.

Zu ran in with tears in his eyes straight into my arms, I scooped him up and held him tightly to me. "What's wrong baby?"

His little arms were wrapped so tightly around my neck, i'd be worried he was trying to strangle me. He shook his head, burying his face deeper into my neck.