CROW (ITACHI X READER)

Chapter Nineteen:

Y/N

I woke up with a gasp and sat up straight in the bed, my eyes quickly scanned the room and I placed a hand on my chest to calm my heart.

Recognition settled and I slowly let out the breath I held. Home. I'm home. I looked down at my robe clad body and tensed.

Memories from last night filtered through my brain. Obito, the room, mental games, torture, blood.

Then... Coming home and having the urge to see Itachi, to feel him, to have him look at me and not see a monster. To have him pull me back onto solid ground and keep me there.

My cheeks heated when I shifted and the familiar ache lit my core on fire. I definitely remembered that and I can admit - even if it's just to myself - that I missed the physical aspect of our relationship.

The comfort in your persons touch, whether sexual or not. After that, things became fuzzy and I snorted to myself. You probably passed out after he fucked your brains out.

When I got out of bed, I paused and smiled because for the first time in however many weeks, I felt normal. I felt good.

"Mama!" Zu yelled and I smiled widely when he came barreling into the room and into my arms, I squeezed him tight and buried my nose in his hair.

"My baby." I whispered shakily and let out a watery laugh.

"I missed you, mama." He murmured into my chest and I exhaled sharply.

"I missed you!" I shook his playfully and he giggled. "Tell me all the trouble you got into since you got back home."

"I'm not trouble."

"Yes you are, my little trouble maker." I tickled him and the sound of his boisterous laugh made me melt, this is what I refuse to miss.

My baby boy growing up right in front of my eyes, listening to his laugh, seeing him smile, watch him become a man.

"Mama, why are you crying?" He asked out of breath and his small hands wiped away the tears, I didn't know was falling down my cheeks.

"They're happy tears." I whispered and cleared my throat. "Now, little man, tell me what you did while I was away."

He then launched into the stories of his adventures - his words - and I smiled at him the whole time. I'm sure majority of it was exaggerated but his happiness was contagious.

We planned what adventures we'd do but when my stomach growled loudly he laughed and pointed to my stomach. "Your monster is hungry."

I smiled and poked his. "What about yours?" He nodded and I chuckled. "Okay, let's go get some food."

I moved to get off the bed and he touched my cheek. "I love you, mama." He smiled at me and a tingling began in the back of my head, whispered words bouncing between my ears.

I love you, y/n.

I shook my head and smiled at Zu. "I love you too, baby. Let's go get some breakfast." He nodded and jumped up, leaving me behind in a cloud of dust.

I chuckled but made my way slowly to the kitchen, the whispered words still on my mind. Who said it? When was that said?

My running thoughts stopped abruptly when I reached the kitchen, Zu and Itachi were smiling at each other  while Zu talked animatedly.

Itachi's smile turned hesitant when he noticed me standing there. "Good morning," He said softly. "I'll leave you two to it."

"Join us." I blurted and he paused, he was probably just as surprised as I am.

"Daddy, please?" Zu spoke and Itachi let out a breath before nodding I think he agreed because Zu stared at him expectantly, I think if he had a choice, he'd give me space.

Why did I ask him to stay? ... Because he fucked your brains out so hard you passed out before he pulled out.

My face heated when I thought back to last night, it was something I had missed dearly. Not only the orgasm but the closeness we always had, how even with our bodies plastered against each other; it didn't feel close enough.

Breakfast was good - I think - we talked, laughed and Zu couldn't stop smiling at both of us. He looked like a kid on Christmas and I was grateful he wasn't picking up on the underlying tension between me and his Father.

When Damon and Max stopped by, Max taking Zu to school and Itachi to work; our small bubble popped. Zu hugged and kissed each of us before skipping off and I chuckled.

Damon had left to wait in the car with a nod but Itachi continued to sit, when the silence became too much, I spoke.

"Thank you for putting me to bed." I said softly and he tensed, the action drew my brows together but before I could say anything he spoke.

"Of course."

"Did you not?" Nerves shot through me but I refused to let my voice or hands shake.

"I did."

So why the reaction?

"I didn't mean to pass out right after." I said with a shaky laugh and cleared my throat. He stared blankly at the wall and sadness filled his eyes before they disappeared. "I'm sorry for that." I didn't know what else to say, I did feel bad about it but- his reaction to this was confusing me.

"Don't be sorry, ang-" He cleared his throat and shook his head. The cut off of the name he had always called me filled me with longing and panic. The latter emotion made me angry for some odd reason.

"I'll do whatever you ask of me." He turned his head to look at me and gave me a smile filled with so many emotions. Sorrow covered every inch of his face then I blinked and any trace of emotion was wiped clean.

I didn't know what else to say so I nodded, he stared at me for a few seconds, like he was looking at me for the first time and committing it to memory. "I'm sorry for having to leave but I have to go to the office."

"You don't work here anymore?" The question was out of my lips before I could stop them but I didn't want this to end. Although it was a stunted, bizarre conversation; it was the first one we had that was civil.

"I respect what you asked for and will keep my word."

Space. I remember demanding it and I hated that I regretted it, how can I after everything?

"Okay."

"I'll be back later if that is okay." He said while he stood and buttoned his suit jacket, his movements mechanical.

I nodded and he leaned over as if to give me a kiss but stopped and turned away quickly. His shoulders rose and fell quickly before he cleared his throat. "Have a good day." He walked away before I could respond and I sat there minutes after staring out the doorway of the kitchen.

What just happened?