𝘋𝘐𝘍𝘍𝘐𝘊𝘜𝘓𝘛-𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦

𝑴𝒊𝒍𝒂 𝑾𝒐𝒐𝒅𝒔

So I was in front of Portland High, in my brother's car, with my palms sweating so much I needed to wipe them every minute in my jeans. I looked up at the building and at that exact moment, when I saw students emerge into the building or talking while leaning against the walls, I realized what I've signed up for. A lot of people were there and felt my heart kick against my ribcage at an insane speed. Logan dragged me out of my thoughts with a quiestion.

'Are you ready?' he asked on a cheerful tone, not noticing how much I was stressing over this. I was an anxoius person anyways, always worrying about all the things happening around me. It could be the less hurtful and meaningless things and I would still over stress.

'I think so.' I said, trying to keep the tremor out of my voice, but I must failed miserably, since Logan's face dropped and looked at my direction, turned down the music that was playing.

'What's wrong?' he asked, worry making it's way in his tone. 'Are you not feeling well?'

I thought about my answer before I said it. I needed to be cautios with what I tell him, since dad would ask him out about how did dropping me off at school went and if dad would get the knowledge that I wasn't feeling well, he took me out inmediately, without a second thought.

'It's fine, I'm just scared a bit. Never been in a real school before so...' I trailed off, fidgeting with my ring, something I usually do when I feel panic kicking in.

'Are you sure?' he asked, brows furrowed with concern. I looked up at him, trying to smile brightly at him, hoping I was convincing.

'Yes, I've been waiting for this for a long time.' I told him, rubbing his hand gently. 'And Tessa will be here too, so nothing bad will happen to me, I'm sure.'

'Yeah, you're right. Tessa will be there, so everything will be fine.' he smiled nudging my cheek with his knuckles. I let a small snicker. Grabbing my bag from between my legs, I opened the door of the car and I was already out of it. Standing in front of the school was much more scarier than just driving past it. I think my brain somehow knew, that something unusual will happen and that's why my heart was beating out of my chest.

I also knew that Logan was still behind me, waiting for me to go inside, not leaving until I did, so I pulled out my phone and texted my best friend, while I headed inisde, with a big lump in my throat.

This was my first day in a real school. I never really thought this day would come, since my father was strick about my studies and he insisted that I must be home schooled. I always accaepted his decision, until I had enough of being in the house all day, and barely going out. So after long-long pleading, I could convince him on me attending Portland High, but I forgot about a really important detail and until this morning I didn't realize this. And it is the fact, that I'm a really anxious person and as I was walking inside the panick started to kick in. I needed to calm down and get a hold on myself, because I wanted this, always and I couldn't run away when I was so close to having a normal life. The life my best friend and I dreamed about for our entire life. I couldn't throw it away this is easy.

So I messaged my said best friend, Tessa, who answered quickly, my message was read the minute I sent it. She must have been waiting for me to write. Her answer said they were by the front door, next to the lockers, so I pushed the door of the school open and went inside.

'Mila, finally!' she said, but I couldn't find her. The crowd forming on the corridor was huge. Lots of people running around, shouting, laughing. It seemed normal, but my brain was screaming at me, that it was wrong to be here, that this is why I stayed home, but I chased the thought away and started searching for Tessa's familiar face, whipping my head around like an idiot until I finally spotted her. She waited until I did, she was standing exaclty where she said she would, but she had company. Two boys were also there, leaning against the metal boxes, talking about something. Next thing I know that Tessa is running for me, jumping at my direction. She wrapped her arms around me, sqeeling in excietment. I returned her hug, pulling her close to me my heartbeat slowed down, knowing when I'm with her, nothing bad will happen, because she wouldn't let even the opportunity come close.