𝘋𝘐𝘍𝘍𝘐𝘊𝘜𝘓𝘛-𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦

𝑺𝒌𝒚𝒍𝒆𝒓 𝑶'𝑪𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒍

She tensed at my question. I could physically see her shoulders stiffen and her expressions go hard. While she was lost for words, I knew I asked something wrong. Blood flushed my cheeks with embarrassment, but I had a very bad feeling about what happened yesterday and despite the seeming uncomfortableness that Mila was in, I needed to know what it was.

'What?' was the only thing the girl in front of me choked out, with a small shake of her head.

'I- I just saw you yesterday, after third period and you seemed pretty upset an I thougth I'd ask you, because I-I.' I couldn't finish my sentence, because I couldn't admit that I cared about her that much, that was impossible right?

'Well, I'm okay.' she said, tone tunring rigid and cold and I'd be lying if I said that it wasn't a punch to my gut when I heard the change in her voice.

'Are you sure-' I pushed and that's when Mila had enough of me not dropping the topic, when she gently asked me to, not concretely, but she reffered to it. Multiple times and I was stupid enough to ignore them all and keep asking her. Great fucking job!

'Please, Skyler, just stop, okay?!' she asked me loudly, earning the attention of a few people around us, including Tessa and Matt who turned their head towards us, breaking their make out session. Both of them had frowns on their faces, Tessa inching closer to Mila and me.

'I'm sorry-' I started again, but was cut off when Mila's ever slightly breaking voice sounded again.

'I told you, that I am okay, so please just leave it.' tears formed in her eyes and I've never felt worse in my entire life, but what made it even worse, when she turned around and walked away with her shoulders sagged and shaking.

'What the fuck did you do?' Tessa basicly screamed, when she saw Mila leaving. Putting her accusing finger against my chest. 'Answer me!' she said even louder than before, face reddening with anger and even if I've seen Tessa mad multiple times, since we've first met, but never in my life had I seen her this furious about something.

'I asked her, if she was okay, since what happened yesterday. I did not mean to upset her.' I explained, trying to keep my calm and my voice steady, but it was harder than I would've expected, when I knew Mila was alone, somewhere in the school, agitated.

'Fuck you Skyler, I told you to be careful around her. You had one fucking job, when it came to Mila and you fucked it up.' she said and not only did I see anger when I looked at her, but there was also disappointment atched to her features.

'I'm sorry, Tessa.' I said, but she shook her head.

'I don't care if you're sorry. I asked you to do one thing!'

'Come on-' I tried, but once again I was cut off.

'No, just shut up!' Tessa screamed and I tried to calm her down or atleast tell her to keep her voice down, but it was no use. Fury filled her whole body and there was nothing anyone could do about it. 'I don't want to hear your stupid excuses. I don't want to hear a word that leaves your fucking mouth.' she spat, then turned around and left me there in front of the lockers, with my best friend still standing behind me, speechless.

'Fuck!' I hissed under my breath, while my best friend arrived next to me, with a serious expression on his face. He sighed before starting his monoluge.

'I told you!' he said, tone warning. 'I don't even know what you were thinking!?' he told me, with shake of his head, confused look on his face. 'Going up to her, asking her fucking questions, when it clearly upsets her. We were really warned Sky!' he explained. 'Tessa told us to be considerate about what we ask her. We promised we'll be careful, then you go and fuck everything up, just because you needed to know what happened?' Matt asked, and he made total sense. I was insane thinking that it'll be okay to do what I did and then get away without consequenses. 'It's so fucking selfish.' Matt said, then he walked away too, leaving me alone with a terrible headache, because of last night. Yeah, my mom wasn't joking about sending me to school no matter what. To be honest it was fair from her, since I ingored her calls and messages and then I went out drinking, when it was a weekday. I know I fucked up at home, that one was obvious fact, and I really hoped that I when I come here, I wouldn't have to worry about wether if I'd do something stupid. I was wrong though, so wrong that I went and fucked up majorly. What I did to Mila bothered me more than I lied to my mother. What's gotten into me? Don't ask me that, because I had no clue.