Switch! (Akutagawa x reader)

Chapter Twelve

y/n's pov:

"so you saw my brother's fiance?"

"your what now"

you sighed while you explained to akutagawa the complicated relationship status of your brother, nikolai. he came out to your parents a few years ago, and they were really shocked. he told you he had an interest not only in women a good while before that, but you wanted to keep it a secret, knowing it could ruin his life. despite him being the first person to come out in a very conservative family bloodline, your parents took it really well, and last year, they got him engaged. 

yeah, they got him engaged out of the blue. your parents have always had their little surprises, and you knew that if you wouldn't find someone good enough for them, then they'd find someone for you in a second. they always told you how you'll one day get married and have kids, even though you didn't care about continueing the bloodline, because you had your brother. but when he got engaged to a man, your love life was basically screwed. 

even though your parents had made a very quick desicion for your brother, he's been ecstatic  and overjoyed ever since, yapping to you about his fiance anytime he was mentioned in your conversations. because what else is better than being betrothed to your best friend? you were obiously very happy to hear your brother so joyous, but there was one little problem. he was engaged to fyodor dostoyevsky. 

talking about that devil, he loved you as if you were a sister of his own, though it clearly did not go vice-versa. he gave you several gifts each time he came to visit, and thanks to him, you even have an average vocabulary in russian. but a really wierd gut feeling has made you suspicious of him since long ago. you always knew that whatever that rat was scheming, it was not good. and he was always scheming something, no matter the time. he was an aloof man, unsympathetic, a psychopath, often apathetic, devoid of empathy, who had a lack of kindness no matter who he was talking to.

except from you, your family, and aspecially your brother.

to your parents, he always showed respect. which was the bare minimum, but since he was quite literally the best, most unrivaled manipulator on earth, he quickly earned your father's trust. perhabs it was because he always gave people the feeling of reassurance and responsibility, but it's best not to question his deeds.

to you, again, he gave several gifts. it was his usual way to show friendship. another way he'd show kindness to you was one on one conversations or tutoring you in russian. you hated the way grammar worked for it, but he taught you several tricks to remember it all. he taught you russian for three years or so, and it was when you hadn't suspected him yet, so you'd often follow him around, admiring how everything always fell in place as he said it would, almost as if he was a prophet. it was later when you grew up that you noticed the several tricks and body language he used to make you more fond of him.  

and then there was your brother. obiously the one fyodor had showed the most love for. maybe it's the result of their long-standing friendship or just a personal habit of his, but fyodor would always compliment your brother and shower him with endless tokens of love. hugs, words of affirmation, gift-giving, you name it. holding eachother was always a habit of the two, and even as children, they'd usually be found sitting out in the garden, holding hands. it's become quite a romantic thing, as they still do it whenever the other nearby. it's a very odd thing, concidering fyodor's gloomy, lonely nature has led him to do something so loving.

talking about fyodor and love, the two clearly don't go well together, the exception being your brother, who's in a relationship with him. the reason the whole subject of love, aspecialy love in friendship or a non-romantic love does not go well with fyodor is simply put, he killed his very own mother. apparently, the poor lady didn't want to get married to fyodor's father, even more so to have and raise a child with man, and according to fyodor, him being born was the real shackle to her marriage, so he killed her. when he told you that, you asked why he didn't kill his father instead, but turns out, he was five at the time, so there was not much he could do. he admitted to regretting it though, thinking about how he took his very own irreplaceable mother's life, instead of being a little more patient and killing his dad instead. you were shocked to hear he had a fragment of empathy left, but then again, he had that conversation with you while you were "casually" murdering people together.