Mafia Prisoner

Ch. 69 - Sins of a Father

Vivian POV

It had been a little over three weeks and I was starting to feel like we were going to be ok. Amy and I started making friends, had school and work, and my aunt was softening to us some. She was still withdrawn and had plenty of backhanded comments to me, but I think she was enjoying a child in the house. She even seemed to be getting excited about my baby.

The other day she showed me a room that had a small cove added to it. She thought it would be perfect for myself and a nursery for the baby. She suggested Amy take the room across from me and had a few ideas about color and themes. Amy was of course going to be pink, like the little princess she was, and for my baby boy, she thought planes would be appropriate.

For the first time she spoke about my father. Filling me in about his passion to fly. I never knew he had a pilot's license before. He even had his own little plane that we took small family trips to remote islands too. I couldn't remember any of them though. It was nice trying to imagine me as a little girl sitting on a blanket at the beach as we picnicked though.

Of course, my mind wandered to what Niko would want as a theme. Would he even care? Other than killing people I didn't know if he had any passions.

I shook the thoughts from my head. I was trying not to think of him or what life we could have had. I couldn't pretend he was someone he wasn't willing to be. In all honesty, I didn't even know why I obsessed over him so much. Maybe it was because I was carrying his child, but even before I knew I was pregnant I had an undeniable attraction to him. I loved Tommy but our relationship grew over a long time and was more about comfort and fun.

Tommy made me feel safe and loved, which is why I fell for him. Niko made me anger and treated me like shit yet I wanted him as mine almost instantly. The first time I met him I remember him clearly standing next to his uncle. I was terrified of him but I wanted to know more. It was like his presence woke a part of me I didn't know I needed.

All that was in the past now. As much as I wanted the possibility of what we could have been, it would have never been that way. Niko chose his title and family over me and I needed to accept that.

We sat for dinner Aunt Kathy made and Amy rattled on about her day. She was so happy at her school and my aunt ate up every word the little girl said. She may be indifferent to me but she was smitten to Amy and that made me happy.

"Ian reminds me a lot of Zander. Will I ever see him again?" she asked, startling me. Did she actually miss being under Niko's guard?

"Not for a long-time munchkin."

"Could we visit New York one day? I miss Uncle Paul and Sophia too. Marie always made the best baths. Mine was always pink with flowers from our garden." She had some sadness in her tone and I wasn't sure how to address it. We can't ever go back there. One day I would have to explain why to her.

"I miss them too. It isn't safe though Amy. Do you remember how scary it got at times?"

She nodded her head looking at her plate. We took a few bites in silence letting the pain of friends now lost wash over us.

"Niko was nice before we left. Maybe he wouldn't be so mean anymore."

"Niko is a monster." I quickly said then closed my eyes. Shit! That was not what I wanted to say. My feelings were constantly contradicting each other about him. "Sorry, I didn't mean that. He was nice to us sometimes, but he had responsibilities to the families. We would never be truly safe there Amy."

"What if Michael comes back for me? He'll never be able to find me. I like living here and want to stay but I miss my friends and my brother." She looked down again with sadness in her eyes.