6 : Love Foolish

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March 6th

FELIX POV

"Arghh I'm so hungry." I cry out. I just came from a Luis Vuitton shoot that took hours. I should've eaten breakfast before leaving so early.

I even left without saying goodbye to Chan and Seungmin.

I saw a nice cafe nearby so I decide to maybe get a coffee and then go home.

I enter the place and it was nice and calm, it wasn't crowded either. I head to the counter and order a coffee with some milk and sugar.

Next to me I notice someone who looks familiar.
"Sana?" I say. She looks at me with a bright smile. "Hi, Felix!" She says sweetly.

"What are you doing here?" I say trying to make conversation. "You don't usually go out alone." I add.

She nods with a warm smile. She looks so cute when she smiles. Her face crunches up and it's adorable.

"Actually I'm here with Chan." She says. She points toward their table and I see Chan sitting and looking on his phone.

Why is he here alone with Sana? I walk up to their table angrily.

"Chan?"
"Felix? What are you doing here I uh-"
"Why are you with Sana?"
He stays silent.
"You being here with her is not what you said you would be doing." I say dryly.
"No it's not like that."
"You still lied to me."
"Felix, me and Sana are friends too, you know."

I'm not an angry person. I don't like yelling, I'm just jealous that's all it is. Yet rage is flowing in me that I didn't think before saying.

"What does you being friends with her have to do with anything, asshole.." I spat.
Chan looks at me weirdly.

"Yeah but-"
"But what? Chan, you told me you were going to the swarovski shoot. Why are you with Sana?" I yell.
"Its bad enough that you lied but to be here with my crush and not tell me is..."

I stop. I don't want to say things I'll regret.
"We were just hanging out." He says.

I get mad. He's lying.
I look at the bracelet on his arm and look at it carefully.

Channie

Only Sana calls him that. Sana made him a bracelet?
Without thinking I rip the bracelet from his wrist and throw it on the table.

Beads cling and fall everywhere and Chan looks at me shockingly.

"Felix..."

I storm off quickly.

I run back to my car and try to keep the tears from falling.

I shouldn't have yelled like that.
It's just that I now know why Chan has been acting the way he has.

He used to smile at his phone and hide when I came near, go out and give lame excuses to where he'd be, lie to my face when I asked if he liked Sana.

I didn't want to admit it but it's more than clear now. What sucks the most is that I've liked her, for a while now and Chan is going behind my back and talking to her.

Yesterday he told me he was going to the Swarovski shoot but somehow he found himself here.

My heart pounds with anger and confusion. I need to calm down.

I decide to start driving and go home but that's where Chan would be and I don't want to see him. I turn off my engine and take deep breaths.

I lay my head on the couch seat and i suddenly hear a click. It sounds like a camera. I look out my window and see what seems to be someone taking pictures of me.

It's probably a fan.
I roll down my window.

"Please stop." I say. "Felix, I love you! Please can I have an autograph?"

Suddenly more people start to walk over to my car and scream.

Please no. I thought to myself. More and more people surrounded my car and yelled my name. A few tried to slide their hands through the window and touch me.

"Please stop, I'm not in the mood for autographs and pictures!" I say trying to be calm.

More and more of them started shouting and before I knew it I had a bunch of fans surrounding me, clicking their cameras.

"Felix!"
"Please, I love you!"
"I love your music!"
"I am a stay."

Most of the comments were nice but also enduring. I wanted to be alone.

"Kill yourself!" I heard.

Suddenly all the nice words mixed themselves with hate comments. I hear more and more insults and I can't handle it anymore.

I roll up my window and turn on my engine. A few fans were in front of my car but at this point I don't care. I drive through and try to leave quickly.

As I drive away some people recorded me and try to follow me.

When I'm on the road I decided to go home.

Why is being an idol so hard?

I sigh.

I hear my phone ring and it pulls me out of my thoughts.

It's Nayeon.

"Yongbok!" She says.
"Hey." I say tiredly.
"We're having a get together at my apartment. Wanna come?" She asks.

I honestly don't want to go but since it looks like everyone is going I will.

"Sure." I answer tiredly.
"See ya!" She says.

I put my phone down and concentrate on the road. Soon enough my phone rings again, this time it's a text message.

Sana : Felix, we need to talk.

Sana is usually much more playful and cute than this. She seems mad at me. She probably saw the way I acted with Chan and hates me.

I decide not to answer. If I don't answer then I won't have to talk with her. If I don't talk with her then nothings wrong.

I put my phone and take deep breaths. I rub my eyes and dust away the remaining tears on my face.

I look in the mirror and see my freckles. I'm not sure why but seeing them annoyed me. Maybe it's the way it's orange, maybe it's because I have a lot of them

Maybe it's because a lot of people say it's ugly.

Tears start streaming down my face.
When will this nightmare end?

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Being an idol is hard ain't it?
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