Uncertainty (JenLisa)

Unknown feelings

Chapter XI

J E N N I E

As I entered my room, a heavy sigh escaped my lips, and the tears flowed freely. I leaned against the door, trying to steady myself, but the ache inside my chest only seemed to intensify. I had no idea that the two of them would be that close and my heart couldn't shake off the uncomfortable concern. 

I lay on my bed and the image of them together kept flashing through my mind. Each time I thought about it, a sharp pang of jealousy shot through my heart. I groaned and covered my face with a pillow, trying to muffle the sounds of frustration.

Is this the reason why Rosie wants me to run away with her before I came here? Are they in a relationship or something? If that is the case, should I go and apologise to her? Is it my fault getting in between them?

"Argh!" I groaned in frustration.

"Miss Jennie, are you okay?" Min's worried voice echoed from the other side of the door. I struggled to compose myself before answering,

"I-I'm fine. Just need a moment alone, that's all." The only response was a soft, understanding hum, and then her footsteps receded down the hallway.

The warmth in Lisa's eyes looking at my cousin haunted me. I didn't want to interfere in Lisa's personal life, it's only been a month since I moved here, we never talked about the marriage, she just simply comes home whenever she wants, and when Lisa does she's treating me so right. My emotions were a tangled mess. The tears escaped from my eyes in muffled sobs. I knew I shouldn't be feeling this way. Lisa didn't owe me any explanations. She was free to live her life as she pleased. But the ache in my chest refused to go away.

As I battled with my thoughts, trying to put an end on my feelings, the hurt seemed to swallow me whole, then a sudden knock on my door startled me.

"Ruby Jane, are you in there?" Lisa's voice came through the door, concern lacing her words. I hastily wiped away my tears, trying to compose myself.

"Y-yes, I'm here," I managed to choke out, the tremor in my voice betraying my emotions. I hesitated for a moment, then I fixed my self and slowly opened the door. "Come in," I muttered, trying to sound as composed as possible. As Lisa stepped in, a concerned frown formed on her face. She looked at me with concern, her eyes searching mine and she reached out to gently wipe away a tear that had escaped down my cheek.

"Hey, is everything okay?" I forced a weak smile and nod.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just a lot on my mind, I guess." We walked over and sat on the edge of the bed.

"Talk to me. You know you can tell me anything." I hesitated for a moment, then let out a deep breath.

"I-I was just thinking about my mom. I miss her a lot." I said, which is true, aside from her mom's request to bring her lunch. I personally want to ask Lisa if I can visit my mother's grave, but I did not expect to see something I never would have imagine to witness and forget to ask about the visit.

"I'm sorry to hear that," Lisa said, concern was evident in her voice. "Do you want to talk about it?" I forced a smile and shook my head.

"No, it's fine. I just need some time to myself. You don't have to stay, I know you were busy." Lisa's eyes softened with understanding. The pain of keeping my feelings hidden felt like a weight pressing down on my chest. But instead of walking away, she came closer and wipe my tears away, pulling me into a gentle hug.

"Shh... It's okay," she murmured softly, rubbing comforting circles on my back. Her presence brought a strange sense of calm, and I found myself slowly relaxing into her embrace. As the sobs subsided, I felt my eyes grow heavy. The comfort of her arms made me feel safe, and before I knew it, I drifted off to sleep, the sound of Lisa's soothing hum lulling me into a peaceful slumber.

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As I slowly opened my eyes, the sight of an empty bed greeted me. Confused, I glanced around the room, only to find a note placed neatly on the nightstand.

It read: "Get ready, meet me in the car." A surge of excitement and anticipation rushed through me as I hurriedly got dressed and tidied myself up. Had Lisa planned a surprise?

Rushing out of my room, I found Lisa waiting in the car, "You're finally awake, sleepyhead! Ready for our little escapade?" she exclaimed, I got a little nervous, but let it aside. The engine rumbling to life as I settled in beside her.

"Umm, where are we going?" I asked, my curiosity rouse.

"Let's keep it a surprise for now," she replied, her eyes sparkling with mischief. The car roared as we drove away, the wind humming past us as we journeyed into the unknown. With each passing mile, I couldn't contain my excitement, and neither could Lisa, who hummed along with the song on the radio, her laughter filling the air. As we ventured, I couldn't help but feel a newfound spark of joy within me, all thanks to Lisa's spontaneous gesture.

As we drove, the landscape is became familiar, the wind whistled through the open windows. She stopped at the market to buy fresh flowers, I got excited as I assumed it was for me, but she put it at the backseat, and the scent of fresh flowers filled the car. I glanced over at Lisa, who had a mischievous twinkle in her eye as she stole a quick glance at me.

"Who are those flowers for?" I asked hesitantly, a glimmer of hope in my voice, hoping it was for me. Lisa let out a hearty laugh, the sound ringing through the car.

"Oh, these aren't for you." a pain shot through me,

"Oh." All my excitement retreated.

"They're for your mom," she said, her voice filled with warmth and affection. My heart sank a little, but I couldn't help but feel touched by the gesture. She was taking me to visit my mother's resting place, my safe place.

As we arrived at the cemetery, the air was filled with a sense of tranquility. Lisa hummed softly to herself as she placed the flowers on my mother's grave, her voice blending with the gentle rustle of the leaves in the breeze. I stood beside her, feeling a mixture of emotions. It was a bittersweet moment, and I couldn't help but be grateful for Lisa's understanding and support.

"Thank you, Lisa," I murmured softly, my voice barely above a whisper. She flashed me a warm smile, and for the first time, I felt a glimmer of hope that maybe, just maybe, I wasn't so alone after all.



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