Uncertainty (JenLisa)

Denial

Chapter XV

L A L I S A

As I sat at the bar with Irene and Jisoo, and Kai. I tried to drown out Jennie's image from my mind. Each time she popped into my head, my heart quickened, and I downed my drink to push her away. But with each passing moment, I couldn't help feeling drawn to her. Irene noticed my distraction and nudged me.

"Hey, what's going on with you? You look like you've seen a ghost." Irene asked, I let out a frustrated sigh and swirled my drink.

"It's nothing. Just thinking about work stuff."

Jisoo raised an eyebrow, "There is no way, Manofoot. We've known you for too long to buy that sht." I shot glared at her as she starting to tease me again.

"Might be that girl," Irene said and both of them laugh. Kai on the other hand was just observing and drinking his beer. He is an introvert, Jisoo was just dragging him out of the cave.

"No, it's not her. She's just a part of the deal, nothing more." Jisoo just laugh at me.

"Well, I didn't mention any name and you have someone in mind," she teased me.

"Fck off," I shook my head. Jisoo is right, but I didn't want to admit it and I couldn't shake the feeling.

"Oh yeah by the way, don't forget that we're going out of town this weekend." Irene smirked, she might be planning on something, might be some troublesome trip. I shook my head in disbelief. The noise of clinking glasses and loud chatter filled the air.

"To a wild weekend out of town," Jisoo declared, clinking thier glass against mine.

"Whatever," I replied with a cocky grin, taking a sip of my drink. Irene leaned in closer, her eyes sparkling mischievously.

"Well, might as well you introuduce her  to us, you know, that special someone who's taming you," she teased, winking at me. I scoffed, rolling my eyes.

"Oh please, I'm not the type to be tamed by anyone. I don't need anyone tying me down, let alone fall in love." I said confidently, trying to ignore the way my heart skipped a beat thinking about Jennie. My two friends exchanged looks, but I ignored them.

"We'll see about that, Lisa" Irene chimed in, a sly smile on her lips.

I tried to convince myself that Jennie was nothing to me, but deep down, I knew it wasn't true. I couldn't let myself fall for her. I had been betrayed before, and I didn't want to go through that again. But the more I tried to resist, the more Jennie seemed to seep into my thoughts, despite my best efforts to push her away, to avoid her.

I took another swig from the bottle, feeling the burn down my throat., Jennie's face flashed in my mind, and I quickly shook it away. That's when a woman walked in. A sultry smirk played on her lips as she sauntered over.

"Hey babe, buy me a drink," she purred, and I found myself nodding, pouring her a glass with alopsided grin, I looked at the two dork and shrugged my shoulder. Maybe this was the perfect distraction. "In case you forgot, my name is Euna."

This Euna grab my hand and drag me to the dance floor, the pounding music reverberated through my body, and soon, my hands were on her back, pulling her closer. In a haze of alcohol and desire, I kissed her, without caring about the people watching us.

"Such a good kisser baby," The pulsing beat of the music throbbed through the air as I moved with the woman on the dance floor, her body pressing close to mine.

"Let's go to your place." I could feel the heat of her breath as she whispered in my ear, inviting me back to my apartment. I hesitated for a moment, the memory of Jennie's eyes flashing through my mind, but then I shrugged it off.

Why did she matter anyway?

I led the woman out of the crowded bar, her hand in mine, and hailed a cab. As we stumbled into my apartment, I flicked on the dim lights, the soft glow casting a sensuous atmosphere over everything. I pulled the woman close, pressing my body against her as I removed her top and throw it somewhere, her lips brushing against mine my hands roaming on her breast.

"Jennie," I moaned in the heat of the moment, my eyes snapping open in shock.

"Jennie? Who the hell is Jennie?" she demanded, her voice trembling. I stumbled back, caught off guard by her reaction. The woman who I forgot the name pushed me away and her hand connecting with my cheek with a sharp slap, then she pushed me away again and began to gather her clothes, her movements filled with anger and hurt.

"Oh, come on, I didn't mean–" She cut me off with a bitter laugh while fixing herself. She stormed out of my apartment. As the door slammed shut, I was left alone in the silence.

"Damn it," I muttered, knowing that I had let my fear of commitment ruin everything. I sank onto the bed, the weight of this unknown feelings settling heavily on my chest. "What did you do to me .." As I lay on the bed, the echoes of the woman's furious scream still ringing in my ears, I couldn't help but feel a pang of regret for letting Jennie slip into my thoughts again. I grab a cold beer from the nightstand and tried to drown out my thoughts.

"Jennie..." I muttered under my breath, not even realizing I said her name out loud until it hung in the air like a heavy fog. The name that seemed to have a life of its own, haunting me in unexpected moments.

I glanced around the dimly lit room, feeling the emptiness claw inside me. The furious woman was long gone, leaving behind a trail of slammed doors and shattered desires. I knew I had messed up again, not just with her but with everything that had led me to this lonely bed. The bitterness of the beer matching the taste of regret that lingered on my tongue.

Just as I took another sip, my phone buzzed with a message. The screen lit up with my brother's name, causing a mix of anxiety and frustration to churn in my stomach. My mind raced with possibilities, none of them good. What was he up to now? 

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A/N: Thank you for staying with me guys.