Revolution that's been dancing in the rain (Book 1)

14. Disney Dismay

I wake up from an only slightly rocky sleep.
The studio couch is so much more comfortable then the living room one.

"Morning" I turn my head to see Reggie next to my face
"Mornin' Reg, is this what I have to look forward to every morning now that I'm living out here?"
"Leave the girl alone Reggie" Alex mumbles still half asleep on the armchair
"Okay I'm going in to hang out with Ray" he poofs out and I turn over and fall back asleep
By the time I wake back up I'm rushing not to be late,
I have my dance with Chris today so I root through my clothes for a black dress that I can dance in that also won't get me dress coded,
It harder then it should be.
I end up in a black zip up jumpsuit and a black pleated mini skirt.
Its not completly within dress code and not technically a dress but its the best I can do
and at least I can dance in it and won't flash anyone.
I put a pair of riding pants on over my jumpsuit and throw the skirt in my bag before grabbing my helmet and heading out the door.

"Breath in" I rush in trying to disturbe the class as little as possible
"You're late Ms Joans"
"Sorry Miss"
"20 push ups" Coach demands
"Just take your place" She says giving coach an odd look
I take my place next to Chris
"You're late" he wispers from behind me
"Had to change into my dance outfit"
"You ready for this" He asks holdng his hands out
"Better question is are you ready for me" I wink
The music starts and we begin the dance.
Everything's going well until I have to grab his hand to dance,
he spins me and flashes of another boy come into view.
I pull my hands away as soon as I can and try and dance through the panic bubbling up in my chest.
I look over to Jul's trying to catch her attention and send her a SOS signal but she's caught up in her own world.
I'm not even sure Nick has her attention.
The dance finishs with Chris picking me up by the waist and spining me in a circle.
The second his hads touch me my chest tightens and I feel sick to my stomach.
"We were great" He praises once the music stops
"Ya, I'll see you later" I say walking out of the room as calmly as I can with my chest feeling like its going to burst, and not in the way Julie's probably dose after dancing with Nick.
I book it down the hallway as soon as I step out.
Without thinking I find my way to the music room,
the air slowly starts to find it's was back into my lungs.
Footsteps alert me to someone coming down the same hallway I just did.
Not wanting to explain my state, I duck behind the half wall next to the emergcy exit in the back of the room, out of sight from anyone who comes in.
The person walk over and sits at the piano playing a tune lightly.
I look over and see Jul's at the piano,
I could get up,
if anyone would understand it would be her but
Flynn bursts in before I can decide and I stay put holding my breath.
Flashes of the dance and the other boy intrude in my mind and the panic starts up again,
blood rushes to my head, my ears filling with static noises as my head starts to feel dizzy and my vison blurs.
I don't know how much time passes before I start to regain control of my breathing but by the time I do I can't go back to class.
I leave out the emerngcy exit door, thankful that Julie and Flynn did not notice my presence.

I walk in the studio and am bombarded with 3 ghosts
"Jessie what are you doing here aren't you meant to be in school"
"Ugh, I forgot you were here" I grumble walking in, my earlier panic causing a massive headache, the last thing I want is to explain why I'm home or worse small talk.
"Oh sorry" Reggie ducks his head as I walk past them
"Oh Reg" I turn to face him "I didn't mean, I'm just having a bad day. I'm sorry just ignore me"
I take it back the last thing I want is to make anyone feel bad jus because I do, especially not someone as sweet as Reggie.
"Okay, feel better" He beems happy that I'm not mad at him and I can't help but smile at him as I make my way up to the loft
I pull out a bottle of vodka from the bottom drawer of the dresser,
I'd have to move it before Ray brought the dresser down for me anyway, and put on my headphones.
I had taken out all of the Trevor Wilson songs from my playlist despite my love for them it felt wrong. Sunset Curve's album had taken it's place and I hope to soon be able to add some Julie and the Phantoms in with it.