It's complicated... [Nirvana/GNR]

15. Without Kurt

1994
Today is Frances' second birthday. She grew a lot. I just came back home from L.A. What was I doing in Los Angeles? I visited Guns N' Roses. I wanted them to meet my daughter. Axl was sad but he was also happy. He was playing with Frances and it was so sweet. Kurt stayed at home. He didn't want to hang out around GNR, 'cause you know. They just hate each other...

,,Hey Kurt, I'm back!" I called when I entered to the house.
Nobody answered.

,,Kurt?!" I called again. Nobody answered again.
I put Frances, who is sleeping, to the bed and went back to the living room. Nobody was here. I went to garage. I think that nobody will be there. I was wrong. I saw Kurt's dead body laying on the floor of garage and next to him was shotgun. Tears started streaming down my cheeks. I couldn't even speak. I was shocked. I ran to him and knelt down on my knees.

,,Kurt? Why did you do that? I love you. I love you so much!" I cried hysterically. Then I noticed some letter beside him. I read it and broke into tears again.
I was with him for like 15 minutes. When I calmed down I went to the phone which is in living room and called an ambulance. They were there in 10 minutes. They drove out his dead body. I wanted to go with him but I couldn't because Frances was sleeping in her room and I had to be with her. I didn't want her to be home alone. I also couldn't take her to grandma or grandpa because neither Kurt nor I talk to my parents. I called to Steven and I still was hysterically crying.

,,Hello?" Steven said when he picked up the phone.

,,Steven.." I cryied.

,,What's wrong? What happend, Annie. Why are you crying?" he asked with concern.

,,Kurt!" I said.

,,What's wrong with him?" he asked.

,,He's dead!" I yelled histerically. ,,I came back home and nobody was here. I put sleeping Frances to the bed in her room. Then I was looking for Kurt and I found his dead body in garage. He shot himself with shotgun!" I cried more.

,,I'm on my way!" he hung up the phone.

Steven's pov:
I hung up the phone and went tomy room. When I was going through living room, everyone from band was looking at me.

,,What?!" I yelled.

,,What's wrong?" Slash asked me.

,,I need to get to the airport as fast as possible." I said.

,,Why?" Duff asked.

,,Annie needs me!" I yelled and left the house. I wanted to go to my room to chamge my clothes, but I decided to leave straight away.

I arrived to the airport. I went to reception.

,,Do you have any free flight to Seattle? I need to get there as fast as possible." I asked woman who was behind the counter.

,,We have one ticket available," she said. ,,The airplain is leaving in 30 mimutes."

,,Okay.." I said.

I paid for my flight and went on checks and this bullshits. In 30 minutes the plane was finally here. I entered and took my seat. When the plane got to the sky I fell asleep.

After four hours I was in Seattle. Finally. I waved on taxi. He stopped and I sat down on the seat in taxi. I said the adress as fast as I could and the I said that I have to be there as fast as possible. The taxi stopped in front of Annie's house. I got out of the taxi and knocked on the door. Annie opened and hugged me. She was hysterically crying.

,,Come in.." she said when she broke our hug. She closed the door behind me and led me to living room.
I sat down on the couch and she sat next to me. And hugged me. She was crying.

,,Why? Just why?" she said.

,,It'll be okay. Be strong for him.." I pressed her closer to me.