Something gained
Something lost
It's all the same in the end
When we finally wake
To the reality we made
And the people we've upset
They have every right to be mad
Something they thought they had control of
Was never was willing to bow to their hand
Never listened to their words
Harsh or soft
You refuse to let me go
But hold me accountable for everything
And maybe one day
I'll finally understand just exactly why
I'll understand why you look at me with disdain
And why you'd keep me in your corner
But refuse to look at me
Maybe one day I'll understand
Why you didn't just leave
Because I think I understand now
But I'm learning that here
Amongst the giants
I am nothing but a naive
Stupid child
If I were to guess now
I'd say you stay
Because you can't bring yourself to leave
You can't imagine walking away
Not again
Not for forever
Not after you learned
Just how much it hurts me
And something tells me
That despite the pain
I cause you
You don't leave
Because you don't want to be
Responsible for my pain
Responsible for my weakness
Responsible for my cries
Even though we both know
I'd never hold you accountable
Because what can I do about it
If it's in the past
If there's something you want
Then reach for it
If there's something to keep
Then guard it
But the lesson here
Is don't get caught up in the moment
Not so much so
That you fall back to old habits
And then fumble with the web you created
A web of pain and lies and deception
To try and keep everyone happy
A way of controlling the situation
Just a little more than you could before
Don't create something you can't kill
Don't break something you can't fix
And don't lie to someone you don't want to lose
