What is it that you said?
Something about a safe place I think,
But I'd never felt safe with you.
Call it intuition, call it experience
Whatever name you give it
Doesn't matter after all is said and done
Because how can something that sounds so sweet
But hurts so bad
Be safe?
I wish you'd told me the truth
Rather than sugared lies.
You never felt right
And still I never turned away when I should've
How can you blame a young, naïve person?
I don't
They didn't know
She didn't have the experience I have now
Pain is a lesson
And knowledge doesn't come without an outlet
So I guess I should be thanking you
Thank you for being dangerous
Thank you for hurting me, for showing me
All the different things I didn't know
The many different things I should've been watching for
Thank you for killing a piece of me
And my inner child
I don't know if you meant to
Or if you truly meant well
Perhaps I never will
But for the crimes you both knowingly
And unknowingly committed
You are no longer welcome within my walls
The sickly sweet words are no longer a threat
Neither are the disgusting promises you made
The ones that sent shivers down my spine
And goosebumps up my arms
I'll be on my guard
For those who claim to be wise and safe
For I was none the wiser back then
But I now am not me then
Maybe you changed
Perhaps you are better now
But I've been lied to
Manipulated, controlled, tricked
Lied to and hurt
One too many times
Save your words
Don't speak to me anymore
I wish I could believe you
But after all we've been through?
I just don't think it's worth the risk anymore
