The Love and Horror Here

Will I Ever Get My Answers?

My heart aches for you, but why?
Why you?
Why can't I let go despite everything
Why am I still so in love with you?
What am I supposed to learn from this?
I let someone in after so long, and for what?
For you to turn out like the rest,
What am I supposed to learn from that?
I have known for so long not to trust
And this only continues that trend
So I ask again: what exactly am I meant to learn from this that I haven't already?
Maybe the answer is there isn't one
Maybe not everything is a lesson sent by the universe
But a melancholy attached to my soul nonetheless.