The Love and Horror Here

Sojourn of the Soul

I'm running, hiding,
Deep within my shadow,
Come and find me if you dare,
Journey through my dark side if you think can handle it,
Look into my mind without fear,
Or be swallowed up by it,
Search my soul for answers,
But receive but more questions,
Try to find the goodness within me,
But how do you know there's any left?
I am screaming on the inside,
Crying out for hope, for sanity,
To come my way,
Can you hear me,
Can you hear my cries,
Or are you just ignoring them,
Pretending everything's okay,
Telling yourself I'm fine,
But if you could see the chaos in my mind,
You would understand,
You would know,
I haven't been fine in a long time.
I'm living inside a mad world,
And my only escape isn't that much better,
My thoughts pierce me,
Like glass shards,
My fantasies are plagued,
By reality,
My hopes,
Have been dashed too many times,
My memories,
Are full of bitter(sweet) regrets,
My eccentricities,
The only thing intact,
What would you do,
If you knew what that was like?
I stare into my Abyss,
Won't you join me,
Let's sit back and watch me burn,
Try and save me if you dare,
But the flames have ravaged so much,
Salvage what you can of the old me,
And leave the rest to rot;
I don't need it any more,
To survive.
Let the madness and the pain fall away,
Letting the screaming inside my head end,
Let me rise up from my old self,
Rise up from the ashes,
And the pain,
Let the memories of loss lessen,
Let me feel like one day I'll be okay again,
Rise up out of the blackness,
And touch the light once more,
But you'll have to come and find me first.