DEJA VU | OSCAR DÍAZ

|15: HEALING|

It's a miracle I'm still alive

No one said that it was easy

Tryna piece the broken pieces

But that's the shit I'm working on

The journey is a work of art

I can't erase all the things that I've done

But all the mistakes made me who I've become

I've been feeling
Inside out in my feelings

Upside down, on the ceiling

I'm finally breathing
The smoke ain't gone, but it's clearing

I ain't there yet, but I'm healing

|OSCAR|
Monday
June 25th, 2023

I could hear something buzzing repeatedly, but I was too comfortable to open my eyes. I felt good like this, it was the best feeling ever and I can't remember when I last slept this good- I don't think I ever have.

The buzzing wouldn't stop and I realized it was my phone but I was hoping whoever was calling would give up, but they didn't. I groaned as I started to sit up but stopped when I felt slim arms tightening around me, I opened my eyes fast and turned my head just enough to see Leilani's wild curls before they rubbed against my face as she scooted closer to me.

I stiffened up as I blinked at her, I looked at her naked back then down at the sheets around us. I don't think I blinked as my eyes scanned the room and I laid flat and kept my eyes on the ceiling. I didn't let out a breath, I held it in as I kept my eyes straight "what the fuck?" I mouthed as I kept my eyes ahead and didn't move.

I didn't know if I should move, I didn't know what to do. Where do we even go from here? My phone started buzzing again, and I was starting to get anxious. What if it was Cesar? What if something went down with the Latin kings?

I reached over to grab my phone and just as I did Leilani yawned, I rolled my eyes when I saw I had six missed calls from Brandon.

"Bitch ass Vato," I whispered to myself and shook my head "who's a bitch ass Vato?" Leilani asked as she stretched, when she stopped she gave me a soft smile but my eyes were glued to her naked chest.

Leilani frowned before she looked down at her chest and her face turned red as she quickly pulled the sheet over her chest then fell back onto the bed and turned away to shove her face into the bed "oh my god."

Her words were muffled but I could still hear her, "you good?" I asked as I poked her back, she had small freckles on her back and I poked each one counting them before she turned back around and I only got to five before her eyes met mine "are you good?"

I was trying hard not to smile, but it was starting to get painful fighting against it "I'm good I - uh yeah- I mean I- you know what I'm not even gonna front, I'm fucking great."

Leilani didn't say anything, she just stared at me and I stared back at her as I raised up. I was starting to think she wasn't as happy about last night as I was, and maybe I shouldn't have said anything at all so I started to get off the bed.

Her eyes lowered slightly before they were big and wide again, and I saw her dimple starting to show as she smiled back at me then she dropped the sheet as fast as she grabbed it a moment ago and wrapped her arms around my neck as she jumped on me causing me to lose my balance and we both fell off the bed.