Shedding Tears [COMPLETED] #Wattys2016

Chapter 10

It's a fine morning as i see my boyfriend sitting right infront of me. I look at him intently as he's waiting for my question patiently yet curiously. I gulp down a spoonful of my pancake as i rethink of asking the question or not. I try to gather my guts and finally break the disturbing silence.

'Where did you go after you left me yesterday night?' I blurt out as i wait for Harry's answer. I hope he doesn't say something that will break my heart. Heck, i wasn't even sure what i wanted to hear. I still waited. No answer. He took a sip of his coffee while looking at the pancakes as if they were some valuable gold. He was trying his best to avoid any sort of eye contact with me. Why? Did i ask something that offended him in any way? Was he about to tell me which would break loose all hell? Open your mouth, dammit. SAY SOMETHING. I mentally scream.

'I was at Sebastians.' Is all he say as if hearing my thoughts. Wait, what? He was at Sebastians? Why? I hope he's not dead or something.
I stare at Harry in utter shock and raised eyebrows. I nod in a way for signalling him to continue.
'Babe, i trust you. With every bit of my heart and every hair of my body. Everything you said yesterday made me want to kill Seb. How dare he touch my girl? I beat him, i beat him hard till he was bleeding and i told him not to come near you ever again or else he won't live to see his balls grow. I just wanted to protect you and i promise i will. You will be mine till the minute i die. Okay?'

Oh my God. Every word caused my heart to melt and then evaporate. Okay not really but you get the point right? He is just so adorable. And so sincere. And so manly. And so..mine. He's looking at me as if waiting for some kind of response, a word at least. And i respond. I respond by pulling him into a passionate kiss. We kiss so deeply as if this was our last kiss. He kisses me back hungrily, our tongues battling for dominance. This feeling, is the best ever. The butterflies in my stomach are fluttering and i feel like they're gonna escape from my mouth. His hands reach up my waist and my hands play with his silky dark brown hair.

Our lips are parted and we are panting so hard. I whisper in his ears 'I love you baby, i love you so much' is all i say until im lifted up in his arms and kissed again. I loop my legs with his waist as we kiss eachother with so much love. We travel to my room upstairs, me on him and our lips continuously doing their job without taking a seconds' break. He shuts my bedroom door behind me as he gently throws me on the bed jumping on me. He is now on top of me, hes very careful as if not to crush me. He beams, his beautiful, straight white teeth causing flowers to grow. I look at his twinkling eyes, so magical. He whispers in my ears, 'My girl is so beautiful' and my stomach twists in such a way that it could literally malfunction of happiness and my cheeks are blood red from the blush.

He trails down slow pecks of kisses on my neck as i play with his hair. His hands slowly travel up to my shirt and off it goes on the floor. I'm now in my purple bra as he smiles. I unbotton his shirt and throw it on the floor where it would accompany mine. We're both shirtless as i look at his gorgeous body. So hard, masculine and stunning. I touch his chest as he giggles causing me to blush for the umpteenth time. I lean in to kiss his abs as he unclips my bra. I shift uncomfortably as i look at him. Please continue. I don't want him to stop, ever. This feels so good, so adventurous. He leans in and claims my lips another time, my breasts touching his naked body causing a shiver down my spine. I push him harder towards me as we kiss passionately, yet another time.

After a few more minutes of our thrilling makeout session, we both lie there in my bed half naked, snuggled up beside eachother. I rest my head on his chest as he strokes my hair occasionally. 'I was wondering,' he says breaking the silence, 'what kind of couple makes out in the morning. Like its 11:30'
I hit him on the chest playfully as he chuckles with delight.

We spend half of the day in bed laying down beside each other, laughing and talking and kissing and cuddling. Such a perfect Saturday, i mentally smile to myself. So my question wasn't that bad huh? The question. This reminds me that he wanted to ask me a question too. I look up at him as he looks down at me, our lips only inches apart. 'You had to ask me a question?' I say casually. He stops stroking my hair and shifts on the bed. He sits down and loosens his grip on me. Being the irritating girlfriend that i am, i snuggle in him, even closer.

'Are you on any kind of medication?' He asks, his voice cold as ice. Holy shit. Not the antidepressants. Please. He shouldn't know.
'Um medication? Like what?' I ask with a whimper in my voice. I try my best to sound calm and casual but i know I've failed miserably.
'Why are you taking antidepressants? You know those are so harmful for your health. You have me beside you, at all times and you shouldn't be taking those lethal pills' He almost screams, his voice a mixture of anger, worry and concern. I lean in his chest tightening my grip around him as i silently cry, wetting his naked body a bit. He realises as he lifts me on top of him in a way that I'm straight facing him. I'm so freaking embarrassed right now that i want the ground to open up and eat me so i would never have to face Harry again.

'Hey, shh, hey, babe. Listen to me' He tries to calm me down. 'I'm so sorry, i have always been a depressed soul.' I say hiding my face and sobbing. Harry doesn't show any emotion, he says 'When and why did you start taking those?'
'Last year. When Seb left me for Darcy i just couldn't console myself. I was so shattered and i judged myself in the way i shouldn't. I thought i wasn't good enough for him, so i was depressed. I loved him.' I could feel the awkward tension in the air, the eerie silence taking over. Harry's face hardens. I continue 'And later that year my dad died. He was the only help and guidance in our lives. We all loved him, we were just an average yet a very happy family until he left us forever.' I gulp. 'And his death impacted mum the most. She couldn't take hold of herself and couldn't admit her husbands death till i realised i had to be strong, for her and Ben. We were all devastated. Financial crises, growing expenses were all haunting her nightmares so i decided to work as well. Due to the building pressure i couldn't see myself the way any teenage girl should, which added on to my depression. Hence led to those antidepressants.' I finally stop talking and take a deep breath.

He looks at me, his twinkling eyes seem dead. He just hugs me so tight i i fear i would crush with his weight. 'Oh babe I'm sorry for judging you too soon' I nod as i peck him on his lips. He continues 'You know um, i had an elder sister, Lily. She was like 3 years older to me. In highschool she started dating Dane and they were pretty serious, she thought so. So like after one year when my sister agreed to meet his parents and was at their house, this woman named Emily or Emma, i don't really remember, appeared at the doorstep. She was wearing a ring that Dane gave her on their..engagement.' He paused as i gulped, my eyes wide.

'So basically, that was the day when Lily found out that Dane already had a fiancé and he'd been cheating on her all along. My sister started taking those antidepressants that you use, the same dark brown ugly looking pills. Nobody noticed that she was on this kind of medication. We just thought she was recovering and accepting the betrayal when in reality she was being eaten everyday till one day she..died.'
Omg. That was a hell load of information to absorb.
'I have lost my amazing sister because of those antidepressants, i can't lose you, Stacey. I love you and i cannot let you go.' He then says, a tear rolling down his eye. I wipe it off as i dig my head on his shoulder and cry.

'Hey, don't cry, babe.' He says, to which i reply, 'I'm sorry Harry, i promise to never leave you.' I say in his shoulder.
'Do you promise to never take those ever again?' He asks seriously. 'I promise' is all i say, with so much confidence. I can't let Harry lose this time. No matter what, I'm gonna fight the depression, I'm gonna fight the urge of taking those ugly pills, I'm gonna do it. For Harry Cooper. I promise.

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Hello my loveliessss! A very serious chapter, eh? Did you like the big bubble of information that just burst? Comment please :D

-Jamilaa.