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furina - hurt

A/N: Hey! Yuna here! Sorry, I have not written much for- well... quite a long while- T.T. This fic has been requested so I'm quite nervous about this one and I hope I was able to follow the guidelines of what you were expecting for this ff. First time writing fem/reader so I'm quite excited about his one too! Thanks a lot and enjoy!! 

Lately, Furina has noticed your odd behavior, not just that you'd barely touch the food YOU made- but you'd act distant... You'd just sit daydreaming, your gaze stiffened and stuck on the floor. Concerned, she'd watch your every move and oh, did she figure out A LOT based on your cheerfully fake fatigue, something you've never done.

She didn't want to force anything out of you, but gosh- she was extremely curious about your behavior, determined to get rid of whatever troubled your mind (She only wants herself to occupy your mind after all-AHEM.)

You were taking things- quite far... From slightly sleeping to not sleeping, Furina often frowns at the visible evidence of dark eye circles, worrying about your health and sleep schedule. Not only have you struggled with sleep- but you have been arriving home later than usual; this would cause Furina to worry over you since you're taking longer than usual to get home.

One day.....................................................................................................................

Furina had ENOUGH as she saw you weakly limping to the door with eyebags that made you look drained of sleep. She stops you and grabs you by the wrist as you attempt to go out the door.

You bit your lip and turned around "Furina-"

"We need to talk. Now." She glared daggers into your soul as her grip tightened on your wrist, dragging you to the couch, all you could do was let out a soft sigh.

You sat on the couch facing her, fidgeting with your hands as you looked down in shame.

"Well? Care to explain where on earth you've been going these days?" She crossed her arms and had a stern gaze on you.

"I-"

"Or why you've barely eaten lately?" She raises an eyebrow, however it is displayed on her face how upset and disappointed she is by your behavior.

"Furina..-"

"Or why you barely slept 5 hours?" She grits her teeth.

You sat in pure silence, not uttering even a single word, your mouth sealed into a thin line as tears started to prickle your eyes.

"So? Are you going to tell me? Or will you repeat my fate?" Her teeth clenched as she spoke with a voice laced with- anger almost?

You didn't dare say anything, oddly you'd know to open up to her, she's your girlfriend after all but... This all seems so personal, like there is nobody you'll ever be able to open this up to no matter how much you want to.

You left to go to the tombstones of your blood, tears staining the graves as you apologised daily, you never ate since the pure guilt of the loss of your loved ones consumed you wholly, and you didn't sleep because you couldn't ever doze off with a broken record of flashing gruesome memories flooding your head all night.

"JUST SAY SOMETHING GOSHDAMMIT!!" She screamed with pent-up anger.

That snapped some- cord in you. "WHY ARE YOU YELLING AT ME???!!! HAVEN'T I DONE ENOUGH!? IM TIRED!!! I-" You reached up to find tears spewing out of your eyes like waterfalls.

Oddly, Furina just sat there staring at you with empathy, a soft, tender look in her eyes, one that gave you reassurance she was listening.

"I'm tired." You rubbed your teary eyes. "I really am-... E-everyday I'm j-just... consumed by fear- consumed by the soul-eating guilt-" You struggled, but she gave you a look that encouraged you to take your time, placing her hands atop yours.

You look up at her with despair and tear-stained eyes. "W-What If-" Right when you said that, Furina immediately knew what you wanted to say, looking into your eyes and gently gripping your hands. "[Name] No... None of it is your fault, you-you know that.."

"What- What if it was my fault?- They- What if it's because of me they're dead?" You gently sobbed as you looked into her eyes desperately.

"[Name] Don't you EVER blame yourself for that." She started tearing up, a little frustrated. "You KNOW for a fact they wanted this... They wanted you to live..." She gently cupped your cheek with sympathy glinting in her eyes.

"Look how proud your family would be-... watching you come this far in life... They made a sacrifice, one that was honorable." She spoke with a gentle shake of a head.

"They didn't pass BECAUSE of you, they passed for the sake of you, my dear.." She gently tucked a loose hair strand behind your ear.

You leaned into her touch with a broken expression, crying into your palms as she wrapped you into an embrace. Slightly stung from the tears but- hell she would care less.

"I'm... Sorry, I yelled at you I just.. Well... Things got a little personal with experience.." She softly spoke "But I'm proud you could open up to me, that alone takes a lot of courage." she smiled softly and rested her head atop your shoulder.

You nodded, too tired from everything to say anything, you just decided to sleep and clear things up the next day, you feel worn out... But it's like a huge weight has been lifted off your chest.

"You can answer my questions tomorrow... Rest well, mon amore. I love you forever and I'll always be here for you as you were here for me." She smiles and pecks your forehead before you doze off.

Wrapping a blanket around you, she hugged you close and ran fingers through your hair before kissing your cheek a last time before she drifted off to sleep as well.

Life can hurt, but you numb scars for me, until I can only feel the bliss of love, not the sting of pain.