"She never looked nice. She liked like art, and art wasn't supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something."
I don't know how to deal with compliments. I know that Mia gets them a lot, and I only recently started getting them. The last compliment I got was from a random lady at New York during Spamalot saying that she liked my green jacket thingy.
I've mostly been getting compliments because of the musical. Those ones I have a love hate relationship with. I love when people compliment my talent but I hate when they say 'I could never do that' or question how I can sing so well. I can sing well because I try. Yes, I was born with a good singing voice, but I've crafted and molded it to the way I want it.
For the most part, I don't like when people call me beautiful. Like, I'm okay with you saying it to me on a regular day when I look like a frumpy dumpy grunge kid, but not when I'm wearing a dress. This is mostly because I have now attached my self worth to that dress. People only think I'm beautiful if nice clothes and fancy dresses. People only compliment me when I'm playing a character. I think that's why I like when people compliment my voice. Side note: only one person ever has complimented my acting.
A little known thing people have been saying recently is, "you have the voice of an angel." I know that since tryouts, at least 3 people have said that straight to my face. I don't believe in angels-I have very complex thoughts about god and cannibalism. I know that one of them was Liyah right after tryouts. I sang a song about death and taking over the world and she said that I have a voice of an angel.
You see, I don't believe in God, but I talk about him like he's a real person. I also definitely don't believe in the devil-mostly because I don't think his entire evil shtick doesn't really fit. If anything is evil, it would be God, though that does bring up the topic of social constructs and evil being in the eyes of the victim.
