So this may seem hard to believe but, I've never been on an actual date before. I know, shocking. I'd never had a boyfriend either, and that's NOT saying I assume after this date I will. I guess me and teenage boys did not gel to well. Or maybe it was just me that didn't gel. Unlike most of my friends, boys were not something I activity seeked out. I mean, I had friends that were boys! But when it came to 'dating' I just didn't see the point. (And I didn't think anyone would see the point of me)
So here I was, 18 standing in front of a full length mirror. Ready.
I may be dramatising this ever so slightly. We were going for dinner, it wasn't a big deal. That's what I told myself anyway. I was dressed in black, by happy accident. A black silky Cami dress and a leather jacket thrown over top. (When out of comfort zone? Dress like your going to your own funeral.)
I had refused a ride from one of Matty's drivers because that seemed WAY too formal. "No it's fine, I'll hop on the train! Thank you anyway x" I had text him.
Like usual, I had left way to long to get ready, so was now sat on my bed, twidding my thumbs neverously.
Everyone was out so when the door bell rang I didn't know what to think.
I opened the door to a happy looking Ruby, holding popcorn and my favourite film Midnight in Paris. She looked me up and down quickly before she spoke. "Going somewhere?" She asked.
"Um" I held the door for support, "maybe.." I answered. Ruby pushed through the door and landed on my front room sofa. Ruby raised her eye brows, putting her supplies next to her.
"Pray tell?"
I sat on the arm of the sofa awkwardly, 'how to I phrase this...'
"I'm kinda going on a date." I said quickly.
"A date?!" She sat forward, "No shit! You didn't tell me? What the hell? Good friend you are.." She scoffed and sat back. I exhaled, God she really can be dramatic.
"I didn't say because I knew you'd react like you are this very second," I defended. Ruby rolled her eyes,
"Well soooorry for being so predictable!" We laughed slightly at each other. I knew Ruby could never really be angry with me. She was way too noisy for that!
"So who is he?"
"His name's Matty"
"How old?"
"Older than me"
"How olds that?"
"Mid 20's old"
"Molly you player!" I laughed incredulously at her remark. Ruby couldn't help but smile.
"Where did you meet him?"
"In a Coffee shop" Rubs sighed at that. She is a fan of a Tumblr type meeting.
"Final question.." She said. 'Thank god for that'
"How long have you known him?" Ruby tone was more serious. Maybe I had not been as stealth as I thought. Maybe she knew this whole time. Maybe.
"Coming up Six Months" I replied honestly.
Ruby didn't reply for a bit. I know she felt betrayed. I would. We used to tell each other if a Boy smiled at us on the street. I hadn't involved her at all in this, and its meant a lot more than a smile for. There were SO many times I could have used her advice. I needed her, all the way through.
"Why didn't you tell me? I'm not pissed.. Well I am a bit. I just want to know why you needed to hide this part of your life from me?" Ruby asked
"I guess because I didn't want to get your hopes up, or mine. Being your mate is the only stable thing in my life. I didn't know if Matty would be. I didn't want you to look at me differently I guess. But bloody hell were there things I wanted to tell you. I didn't get round to telling you at the end of Summer, and then I guess I didn't know how. "
I felt a frog in my throat as I glanced at Ruby listening beside me. My best, loyal, trustworthy friend.
"Well you've told me now, it's cool. Don't sweat it bro" She pulled me in for a hug then.
It felt so good to be honest with Ruby. I had one more person to share all my worries and confusions with. Trust me, there's a lot of them to go round.
