𝐄𝐇𝐒𝐀𝐀𝐒 - essence of love

12 : scented candles & him

— ☆⋆｡𖦹°‧ Sehmat's Pov :

I still can't get it off my mind. Rayyan Syed hasn't come for a check-up since that day. It's been four days now, and he hasn't even contacted me after I shared my number with him. Does he blame himself for my flinching?

Is he scared about something? Is he avoiding me because I flinched that day? Or maybe he thinks he did something wrong to me? No !

I don't really know what he was trying to do that day, but I can't move forward with the trauma of being abused in my teenage years. My hands shake when I think about that dreadful memory. I often flinch when a male figure tries to get physically close to me.

But he wasn't really at fault that day, right? Or was he? Because he once choked me with a harsh grip. But I didn't expect him to hurt me again. I don't know why, but I felt safe and secure with him. I don't know why I trust him, thinking so positively about him. He's just a mere patient, right? I'm just overthinking a lot.

shrugging off my thoughts I walked towards irza's cabin only to find haris and rafey there but no irza. " what are you guys doing in here?" I shoot up my eyes brows and inquired.

"We were all having some really important gossips, Mom! I sent Rafey to call you, but this lazy jerk didn't want to go out," Haris informed.

Mom ? Really ? I rolled my eyes.

"I wasn't being lazy, okay? I just didn't want a hungry demon like Haris to be alone with Irza," Rafey retorted.

I laughed at his remark and agreed with him. "Well, where's Irza?" I questioned with a frown.

"She was just here a while ago, but she got an emergency patient, so she had to go," Haris replied.

I nodded, and then they both started quarreling with each other over anything and everything. Rolling my eyes, I chimed in, "If I were to be a BL fan, you guys would definitely be my favorite ship!" I chuckled.

They both gagged in sync and moved a little away from each other at my comment. I couldn't help but laugh my ass off.

" sehmi are you free tonight ?" Rafey asked.

My mind was all occupied with the thoughts of Rayyan Syed and why he hasn't visited the hospital yet. I'm still worried if he'd blame himself for what happened to me that day.

but the question here is :
Why the fuck am I worried ? !

" sehmi are you hearing me ?" Rafey snapped me out of my trance and I looked at him.

" huh?" I asked.

" as it's half day at work today, let's all go to arcade at the evening what do you say?" Rafey suggested and haris cheered meanwhile I just nodded simply.

" so get ready at 5pm okay ?" Haris informed.

" yes also let's all go to my favourite ice cream parlour, okay ?" I asked and they both agreed.