𝐄𝐇𝐒𝐀𝐀𝐒 - essence of love

18 : from need to want

— ☆⋆｡𖦹°‧ Rayyan's Pov :

liking someone ain't a crime, but liking her feels like a huge one.

I never thought things would end up this way, she was no one but an annoying doctor whom I needed, but why the hell is she someone I want, now ?! Why am I feeling things for her?!

Why the fucking hell am I falling for her ?!

why can't I control my freaking feelings, my freaking heart and my freaking hormones?.

I literally forget that I'm a patient with mental disorders and insomnia whenever I look at her.

Her smile fades away my pain. Guess what ? There's this crap which might sound cute but it annoys the hell out of me that I don't feel that scorching pain anymore, because whenever it does I don't feel the need to eat pills because picturing her in my mind heals the pain.

Only if that shit made sense ? But that's really happening even if you believe it or not ! But what in the Disney world is that?

I'm going insane help!

I think Cupid aimed some serious arrow at me.

I should keep my distance because I know I can't have her, why it feels so illegal for a patient to start having a liking for their doctor?

when I first met her I never thought that beautiful doctor will be the first girl I'll ever like. The first girl who races my heart beats.

I never thought I would start having feelings for the owner of those enchanting green eyes.

I never thought my scorching chest pain could heal without pills but when I saw her it helped.

I never thought a hug could comfort me but whenever I hug her I felt wrapped in a blanket of warmth that seeps in through me.

I never thought I'll sleep without nightmares after what happened to me but when I slept on her shoulder that day everything changed.

I wish she knew what affect she's having on me

My phone buzzed in my pocket while I was sitting in the car, ready to head to the mall where we're all going right now.

I opened my phone to check a message that popped up on the screen. It was her!

She's my favourite notification.

that beautiful doctor
where are you already ? Dead or what ? We all are waiting, also didn't we leave the restaurant together, where you still at ?!

Me
I'll be there in a minute.

She's so aggressive all the time, but it's cute.
What the fuck Rayyan ? Why would you call her cute out of really nowhere ? I facepalmed myself controlling my stupid brain from going further and embarrassing my own self.