FANSERVICE PARADOX || w o o s a n ||

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note: this story is written for entertainment purposes, nothing is real so don't take it too seriously. 

some tw are: suicidal thoughts, mental health awareness, chronic depression, suicide attempt, it has lots of angst so bear with me pls :)))

also, I have published it on ao3 as well so if you ever find it there know it's my account and no one stole it from me. 

I hope you'll enjoy it!
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The van is silent the whole ride towards the venue where the fan-sign event would be held in about three hours. It's also the day after a very well received concert, which also means all members are tired. San tries his best to keep his eyes open the whole time, keeping his attention on the scenery from outside. He stares at the tall buildings from Gangnam, most of them drowned in the summer scorching sun. A part of him desperately wants to open the window, but with the chilling air conditioning that covers each one of them equally, he is sure that, if he pressed the button, his ears would bleed from his three members complaining loudly until they would reach that damn venue. The idol tries his best to hold in a sigh, running a hand through his freshly died red hair as he enjoys the little peace and quiet he would have for the next twenty or so minutes.

Hongjoong is dozed off, Mingi's head is heavily pressing on his shoulder, sign he is sleeping as well in his left and Seonghwa is playing animal crossing on the seat in front, sometimes making weird little sounds like his characters do in the game. A small smile forms his lips and he could just imagine that cute little smile the older always has while playing. He enjoys such kind of moments a lot, especially because they are quite rare and if he were to be honest, after the hectic schedules from the past few months, with a new comeback on the way, three upcoming concerts in the country and so much content to be filmed before the new album would be dropped, San really preferers being surrounded by silence even if it's just for a short period of time.

He feels his eyes grow heavier by each minute that passes and in no time, he is surrounded by nothingness. The short nap he has is interrupted by Hongjoong's voice calling their names loudly.

"Rise and shine!" He proceeds to slap San's knee while speaking the words in a melodic way.

"Ughh..."

"I thought we just left." Mingi yawns and finally takes his head off San's shoulder. With the weight of a head being off, the red haired young man realizes how numb his whole shoulder and neck turned after about an hour of sitting in the same position.

"I'll order some coffee for everybody." Their manager announces.

"And that's the only thing keeping me sane." Mingi adds, getting a chuckle from the oldest, a slap on his knee from Hongjoong and a nod of agreement from San. "I'll report you for abuse one day." He pretends to be hurt as he points a slender finger towards their leader.

"You love me too much to do that." The blonde haired man scrunches his nose and laughs lightly.

They are out of the van in no time, all of them stretching their limbs as if they've been on a 12 hour flight across the continent. The second van with the other four members has just parked next to theirs and San knows, that it is a matter of few minutes before his peace would be disturbed by loud voices, one being the most prominent of them all. And his senses are right as always, because the moment the back door slides open, whatever peace he still had in him is quickly turned into annoyance. He leans by the white vehicle and crosses his arms, dark eyes watching his members get out of the second van. Jongho is rubbing his sleepy eyes, Yunho is deep into his thoughts with his headphones on and the only ones left are Yeosang and Wooyoung, who are very deep into a very uninteresting conversation that the two-toned haired male must have started.